The first few weeks seem to drag on and on and now time is just flying by. This last weekend was full of catching up on sleep and doing stuff with the kiddies. Saturday we decided to take them to see Kung Fu Panda after all our laundry was done (9 loads!!) I got to wear my other "fat" jeans that had been dirty all week. At least I THOUGHT I'd get to wear them. I pull them on and go to button them....yeah, not happening! The button wasn't even close to closing. I immediately broke out into tears and waited for James to console me then put back on my other pair of fat jeans which luckily will button (barely). I decided I need to get some maternity pants STAT! On Sunday, Joli and I had a "girls day out" and we did what girls do best. SHOP!! First we hit up Target because I heard they had a good selection of maternity clothes. The one in Dublin was weak and had about 2 racks of clothes, but they have this fancy thing called a belly belt or something like that? Anyways, you put it around your belly to hide jeans that are not buttoned or zipped up. AMAZING! Who ever thought of that little invention is a genius! So I bought one of those and was tempted to put it on in the car and undue my pants but decided to wait it out since that would be my last day in uncomfortable jeans. Then we went to Payless Shoes because I promised to buy her these cute little sandals she had to have. Of course I bought myself a pair too :) We then headed to Old Navy to do the most damage. I loved seeing the little newborn clothes and dresses they have there. It was so hard not to buy anything but luckily I spent so much on Joli and Jamesy, there was nothing left for the little nugget. Our next stop was Cheesecake Factory at the mall in Pleasanton. Joli loves their bow tie pasta and I just love food so it worked for me too. After lunch we headed to a store in the mall to get a birthday present and we passed Motherhood Maternity, which I have a gift certificate to courtesy of my momma. So we stopped in....I have never been in a maternity store before, I have no idea what to look for, what's important to buy, what size I am, etc. Luckily there was a VERY helpful woman working there who showed me around and helped me pick out sizes. After scouring the store for 20 minutes, I decided to try some stuff on. The saleswoman showed me to my dressing room, where, wait for it.....there is a belly you can wear!!! It's supposed to show you what your bump will look like at around 7 months and it's to help you make sure the clothes will still fit comfortably around that time. I was in shock! How cool is that?? Again, another genius came up with this great idea! Of course, I put it on first!! And modeled for Joli Bean who was in shock that my belly will get that big. She mostly thought it was fun to punch it. Anywho, I tried on all these pants that have the elastic band at the top. GENIUS! They were so comfy and immediately I didn't feel like I was crushing my little baby anymore. I'm contemplating never wearing regular jeans again. The only problem I had was finding pants long enough for me but I'll be trying out some other maternity stores soon (if the wallet will allow) and hopefully I can find some jeans in "long" sizes. After that I was happy as a clam! I'm comfortable again!! I can sit and stretch and not feel like I'm suffocating.
The only shocking thing with these new clothes, is that now you can definitely see my new belly! It's growing! I'm really shocked that I'm showing at only 3 months and keep thinking maybe I'm just bloated or fat. But it's just in my tummy area, so who knows....I tried to read about it online but all the websites say every woman is different in when they start showing, etc. So I'm accepting my new baby bump because it sounds nicer than just being fat :)
Mostly, I'm noticing a few new changes. I'm less nauseaous, more hungry and my boobs hurt less which is SUCH a nice relief. I know, TMI, but damn! Those puppies were SORE! I've also been experiencing some new digestion problems....I'll just leave it that! You moms will understand where I'm coming from I'm sure! I'm still tired a lot of the time and look forward to every weekend just so I can catch up on sleep. I already talked to my boss (AKA Dad!) about leaving work earlier than 6pm so I can help out with the kids more since James is gone a lot at his new job and I'm just too tired to make it through a full day. He's not too keen on the idea, but unfortunately there's not much else of an option.
I've also been giving this whole boy/girl thing a lot of thought....I have my days where I know I want a girl. Then I have days where I want a boy. I guess Joli's been a little more high maintenance lately and it's causing me to start rallying for the other team. But then Jamesy does something unthinkable and I'm back on Team Girl. I've decided that I will be happy regardless of what the sex of the baby is. I'm getting more and more excited to get this show on the road!! Also, I have this weird feeling that I'm having a boy. Montel Williams once said that every woman should trust her initial instinct! hahaha
HOW FAR ALONG: 11 weeks (baby is the size of a lime!)
SLEEP: Still sleeping as much as possible. I'm ready to start napping in my car during the work day.
FOOD CRAVINGS: Nothing yet. Craving chips and salsa but I craved those before I was preggers :)
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Getting more comfy maternity clothes
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: All the dr's appts I have next week!
BABY NAMES: 5 more weeks til I find out if this little nugget has an innie or an outie!
P.S. When will my belly button start sticking out?? And when should I start buying up every anti stretch cream known to man kind??
Love, Diana :)
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Week 10!
So here it is....only week 10 of this crazy journey. Apparently I have over 200 days left. But then again, since the world is ending in October maybe just 140+ days are left. Either way I don't think I'll make it. I know I say this in almost every post, but how could this little nugget less than an eighth of the size of me cause so many changes to my body and emotions!? So far this week I've been feeling stressed, irritable and extremely emotional. Last night I tried to cry quietly in my pillow but James could hear me sniffling and came to find out what was wrong. I didn't have an answer for him, just needed to cry I guess. He can't help but laugh everytime I do which helps me cheer up faster. He likes to imitate my "crying face" and suggested video taping these episodes for me to laugh at down the road. I suggested we NOT video tape. I'm sure I have a horrid crying face but that's for me to make and him to stare at. No proof needed! Luckily he cheers me up everytime by reminding me that I can make it through this and everything will be okay and to try and stop worrying about the things that haven't happened yet and that I can't control. I know he's right but for some reason my emotions haven't figured it out yet.
I had a not so fun dr. appt this week. Yesterday, I had to see my cardiologist who I haven't seen since early 2009 because since I've been pregnant I've been experiencing heart palpitations again. Last time I had this problem was around 2003-2004 and I was diagnosed with Atrial Fibrillation. My heart was in constant Afib and had to be controlled through medications. In 2009 I decided to take my chances and go off the medicine due to the side effects and see if my heart had re-learned it's normal rhythm. I was lucky, because it did and I rarely suffered, if ever, from heart palpitations. I'm assuming that the hormones and changes in my daily "living" are to blame for the palpitations, but my OB wanted to make sure everything was okay. My cardiologist told me that most pregnant women will experience some heart palpitations but because of my history he wants to run some tests and make sure everything looks okay. They did an EKG at the appt. which showed fine (but in the past, all my EKG's would be normal). So the next step is to get an echocardiogram which I've had before and is basically just an ultrasound for my heart and then I get to wear this fun holter monitor. It's the size of a walkman from the 80's strapped to my gut and wires hanging all over me for 48 hours. It's no fun because I can't shower for the those 2 days (gross!) and I always have to wear loose fitting clothes but if it must be done! And the cardiologist also told me that even if they find my heart is back in Afib there's nothing they can do until after the baby is born and I'm not breast feeding anymore. All the medications they use to control your heart are known to cause birth defects. Which is fine with me, I wouldn't want to go back on the medication anyways. It just means that if it doesn't go away after the baby is born, I'll probably have to get an ablation. My Dad had a heart ablation a few years ago and it's pretty low risk and effective but something about the words "heart" and "surgery" just don't sit well with me, so hopefully that won't be the case!
Last night Joli said she will be disappointed if I'm not having a girl, but will try to be happy with the baby anyways. I'm glad she's so understanding because I, on the other hand, am not. I've decided that my only option is to have a girl. Sorry boys, but let's face it. You are slower to learn than girls, more high energy and defiant and you have penis'!! I'm not okay with any of that! Joli is like a wonderful, pretty princess. She doesn't like to be messy, does what she's told the first time and always uses her manors. Jamesy on the other hand....is a BOY! Point made! Not in my uterus, no sir!
HOW FAR ALONG: 10 weeks (the baby is the size of a kumquat. What the hell is a kumquat???) Also, my jeans are getting very TIGHT! In my biggest pair of "fat jeans" already and they are getting snug quickly.
SLEEP: Last weekend I slept 12 hours both Friday and Saturday night and took 3 hour naps both days!!! I'm still exhausted...
FOOD CRAVINGS: None this week. The nausea has been too intense
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Jamie's birthday so I can splurge with a glass of wine!!
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: My next emotional breakdown...you never know when they'll hit!
BABY NAMES: 6 more weeks til I CONFIRM I'm having a little baby girl!!!
Love, Diana :)
I had a not so fun dr. appt this week. Yesterday, I had to see my cardiologist who I haven't seen since early 2009 because since I've been pregnant I've been experiencing heart palpitations again. Last time I had this problem was around 2003-2004 and I was diagnosed with Atrial Fibrillation. My heart was in constant Afib and had to be controlled through medications. In 2009 I decided to take my chances and go off the medicine due to the side effects and see if my heart had re-learned it's normal rhythm. I was lucky, because it did and I rarely suffered, if ever, from heart palpitations. I'm assuming that the hormones and changes in my daily "living" are to blame for the palpitations, but my OB wanted to make sure everything was okay. My cardiologist told me that most pregnant women will experience some heart palpitations but because of my history he wants to run some tests and make sure everything looks okay. They did an EKG at the appt. which showed fine (but in the past, all my EKG's would be normal). So the next step is to get an echocardiogram which I've had before and is basically just an ultrasound for my heart and then I get to wear this fun holter monitor. It's the size of a walkman from the 80's strapped to my gut and wires hanging all over me for 48 hours. It's no fun because I can't shower for the those 2 days (gross!) and I always have to wear loose fitting clothes but if it must be done! And the cardiologist also told me that even if they find my heart is back in Afib there's nothing they can do until after the baby is born and I'm not breast feeding anymore. All the medications they use to control your heart are known to cause birth defects. Which is fine with me, I wouldn't want to go back on the medication anyways. It just means that if it doesn't go away after the baby is born, I'll probably have to get an ablation. My Dad had a heart ablation a few years ago and it's pretty low risk and effective but something about the words "heart" and "surgery" just don't sit well with me, so hopefully that won't be the case!
Last night Joli said she will be disappointed if I'm not having a girl, but will try to be happy with the baby anyways. I'm glad she's so understanding because I, on the other hand, am not. I've decided that my only option is to have a girl. Sorry boys, but let's face it. You are slower to learn than girls, more high energy and defiant and you have penis'!! I'm not okay with any of that! Joli is like a wonderful, pretty princess. She doesn't like to be messy, does what she's told the first time and always uses her manors. Jamesy on the other hand....is a BOY! Point made! Not in my uterus, no sir!
HOW FAR ALONG: 10 weeks (the baby is the size of a kumquat. What the hell is a kumquat???) Also, my jeans are getting very TIGHT! In my biggest pair of "fat jeans" already and they are getting snug quickly.
SLEEP: Last weekend I slept 12 hours both Friday and Saturday night and took 3 hour naps both days!!! I'm still exhausted...
FOOD CRAVINGS: None this week. The nausea has been too intense
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Jamie's birthday so I can splurge with a glass of wine!!
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: My next emotional breakdown...you never know when they'll hit!
BABY NAMES: 6 more weeks til I CONFIRM I'm having a little baby girl!!!
Love, Diana :)
Friday, May 20, 2011
What a difference an ultrasound makes....
Wow! So yesterday I had my first ultrasound. I wasn't expecting to see anything but was hoping to maybe hear the baby's heartbeat. Well, no heartbeat but I got to see my little nugget for the first time!!! It was SO amazing. There is this little love bug growing in my tummy!! My OB said this was the clearest he's ever been able to see a baby at 9 weeks and everything looks great. I got some pictures, which I'll post below but it's so hard to tell because he zooms in all the way to take the picture. I couldn't help but cry from excitement and happiness when I saw that little thing on the screen. It just immediately changed everything about how I feel. I was all smiles and when I would chuckle you could see my stomach go up and down and then the baby would wiggle around a bunch. It was like he knew he was on stage and was ready to perform!
The baby's heartbeat was at 176 bpm which is normal when they're that little. My uterus is already so much bigger than the baby and I did put on 4 pounds already, which at first I was very upset about, but once I saw that little guy on the screen I could care less if I've gained 100 pounds! (not really, but you know what I mean). And the baby is only 2.62 cm right now which is so tiny but for some reason on that screen it looked larger than life. If I wasn't sprawled out naked from the waist down, I would have asked my Dr. if I could stay there all day and stare at my little girl. Yes, I'm still convinced I'm having a girl. I'm hoping if I think it hard enough, like The Secret, then it will happen :)
We were also able to confirm that I am as far along as we thought. Today is 9 weeks and 4 days and my expected due date is still December 19th. I get to go back for another ultrasound (and some poking and prodding) in 3 weeks and I can't wait!! My OB said he should be able to determine the sex of the baby around 16 weeks so just 6 1/2 more weeks to go!!
Okay....well I'm having problems getting this image to flip right side up, so this is the best I could do....very irritating! And that "smudge" at the top center is just from the light in the room, it's not part of the picture. The actual baby is the length of the dotted line. The head is above where it says the date on the photo and the body ends right underneath the "9w3d" thing.
Love, Diana :)
The baby's heartbeat was at 176 bpm which is normal when they're that little. My uterus is already so much bigger than the baby and I did put on 4 pounds already, which at first I was very upset about, but once I saw that little guy on the screen I could care less if I've gained 100 pounds! (not really, but you know what I mean). And the baby is only 2.62 cm right now which is so tiny but for some reason on that screen it looked larger than life. If I wasn't sprawled out naked from the waist down, I would have asked my Dr. if I could stay there all day and stare at my little girl. Yes, I'm still convinced I'm having a girl. I'm hoping if I think it hard enough, like The Secret, then it will happen :)
We were also able to confirm that I am as far along as we thought. Today is 9 weeks and 4 days and my expected due date is still December 19th. I get to go back for another ultrasound (and some poking and prodding) in 3 weeks and I can't wait!! My OB said he should be able to determine the sex of the baby around 16 weeks so just 6 1/2 more weeks to go!!
Okay....well I'm having problems getting this image to flip right side up, so this is the best I could do....very irritating! And that "smudge" at the top center is just from the light in the room, it's not part of the picture. The actual baby is the length of the dotted line. The head is above where it says the date on the photo and the body ends right underneath the "9w3d" thing.
Love, Diana :)
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Week 9....Am I done yet??
So here it is, only week 9. I already feel like I've been pregnant for ever! I can almost live with the nausea and mood swings (although no one around me can) but all of a sudden I'm suffering from horrible allergies. Never had allergies growing up and just last year I got them a little bit but this is my 2nd time having HORRIBLE allergies in the past month. I've been cheating and taking Sudafed, but it doesn't help much. I hope I'm not doping up my baby too bad with all the Tylenol and Sudafed but a happy mother = a happy baby! I've also been suffering from really bad headaches. These could be caused from the allergies but I'm not sure. I get to see my OB tomorrow and I hope he will tell me I can take some stronger medicine to help all of this go away. Or maybe he just put me on a morphine IV.....
Yesterday was a big day for me! I woke up unable to open my eyes from the pounding in my head so I slept in til about 11am. When I got up, I immediately felt nauseous but figured it was from skipping breakfast so I made some toast and sipped on some 7 UP that was in the fridge. I noticed that every time I would blow my nose or cough I would kind of start to "heave" a little but tried not to make anything of it...Until I got sick! I puked for the first time (and hopefully the last!!) in ages. I never let myself get sick, anyone who knows me knows how terrified I am of puke. One time when James' family and I went to Disneyland, Jamesy got sick and puked in the hotel room. I, being the loving step-mother I am, proceeded to close my eyes and plug my ears. I told Joli to go next door and tell Nana and Papa to help him out. Then I proceeded to feel sick to my stomach the entire day thinking I was next! The other night James went to bed at a ridiculously early hour and before he fell asleep he mentioned he didn't feel good and thought he might get sick, then he passed out. Well, being the lunatic I am, I immediately started thinking about everything that we ate that was the same and worrying all night that I was going to get sick too. He didn't get sick, of course, and I spent the entire night wide awake waiting to see if I was going to feel sick, which I didn't. This is just to show you all how sick and twisted my head is. And just so you all know, yes I'm in therapy and it's on my list of things to work on :)
I did have some eye opening moments yesterday while I was home sick, crying (of course!). I decided to watch some baby shows. Mostly Pregnant in Heels and My Baby Story (or something like that). What I found out is, I'm not alone in being absolutely terrified of everything that's happening. I keep hearing "oh you'll be fine", "it's not that bad", "you'll forget about all of it once the baby is here" which is very easy to say, but very hard to live by. Some of these women just cried and cried about how scared they are to give birth or breast feed (I cried along with them!). And even though the things these women tried to do to get over it didn't make me feel any better about my fears, it at least validated them for me. I now know I'm not alone in the feelings I'm having. I don't feel so guilty about how I've been feeling because other women have and do feel the same way and their babies end up fine. So as long as I'm not hurting my unborn child by being such a negative nancy, I feel so much better!! And hopefully that will make the negative feelings disappear faster :) James thought he would be Mr. Funny Guy last night and told me (as a joke) that I'm ruining his life and I immediately broke down in tears. I confirmed that I'm ruining his life and mine and I was so sorry and as I sat there in the dark crying hysterically and leaking snot everywhere he couldn't help but laugh and laugh. After a few minutes I started to laugh too. It is pretty funny how emotional I am and how quick I can switch from happy to hysterical. Well, funny OR psychotic, I haven't confirmed which yet.
Nothing else too exciting has been happening in the land of pregnancy. My belly seems to be getting harder and a little bigger. I still have a lot of cramping but I read that it's my uterus growing and is perfectly normal. I'm ready to move into a sports bra from all the pain I've been having in the chest area. It's getting to the point where hugs hurt, BAD! And I have my first ultrasound tomorrow afternoon so I'm sure I'll be blogging Friday with the results. I'm really really hoping I get to hear the baby's heart beat.
HOW FAR ALONG: 9 weeks (baby is the size of a green olive)
SLEEP: I've been able to move my bed time from 8pm to 9pm the last few nights but am still tired a lot of the time.
FOOD CRAVINGS: still wanting grapefruit, but haven't had much. And soup!
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: growing a belly and walking like a penguin :)
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: being in labor! I can mostly thank Doug (James' uncle) for giving me a new found fear of getting the baby from point A to point B
BABY NAMES: I'm going to put these to rest until I find out which sex I'm having. I could go on baby name websites for hours and hours but I'd rather wait til I know :)
Love, Diana :)
Yesterday was a big day for me! I woke up unable to open my eyes from the pounding in my head so I slept in til about 11am. When I got up, I immediately felt nauseous but figured it was from skipping breakfast so I made some toast and sipped on some 7 UP that was in the fridge. I noticed that every time I would blow my nose or cough I would kind of start to "heave" a little but tried not to make anything of it...Until I got sick! I puked for the first time (and hopefully the last!!) in ages. I never let myself get sick, anyone who knows me knows how terrified I am of puke. One time when James' family and I went to Disneyland, Jamesy got sick and puked in the hotel room. I, being the loving step-mother I am, proceeded to close my eyes and plug my ears. I told Joli to go next door and tell Nana and Papa to help him out. Then I proceeded to feel sick to my stomach the entire day thinking I was next! The other night James went to bed at a ridiculously early hour and before he fell asleep he mentioned he didn't feel good and thought he might get sick, then he passed out. Well, being the lunatic I am, I immediately started thinking about everything that we ate that was the same and worrying all night that I was going to get sick too. He didn't get sick, of course, and I spent the entire night wide awake waiting to see if I was going to feel sick, which I didn't. This is just to show you all how sick and twisted my head is. And just so you all know, yes I'm in therapy and it's on my list of things to work on :)
I did have some eye opening moments yesterday while I was home sick, crying (of course!). I decided to watch some baby shows. Mostly Pregnant in Heels and My Baby Story (or something like that). What I found out is, I'm not alone in being absolutely terrified of everything that's happening. I keep hearing "oh you'll be fine", "it's not that bad", "you'll forget about all of it once the baby is here" which is very easy to say, but very hard to live by. Some of these women just cried and cried about how scared they are to give birth or breast feed (I cried along with them!). And even though the things these women tried to do to get over it didn't make me feel any better about my fears, it at least validated them for me. I now know I'm not alone in the feelings I'm having. I don't feel so guilty about how I've been feeling because other women have and do feel the same way and their babies end up fine. So as long as I'm not hurting my unborn child by being such a negative nancy, I feel so much better!! And hopefully that will make the negative feelings disappear faster :) James thought he would be Mr. Funny Guy last night and told me (as a joke) that I'm ruining his life and I immediately broke down in tears. I confirmed that I'm ruining his life and mine and I was so sorry and as I sat there in the dark crying hysterically and leaking snot everywhere he couldn't help but laugh and laugh. After a few minutes I started to laugh too. It is pretty funny how emotional I am and how quick I can switch from happy to hysterical. Well, funny OR psychotic, I haven't confirmed which yet.
Nothing else too exciting has been happening in the land of pregnancy. My belly seems to be getting harder and a little bigger. I still have a lot of cramping but I read that it's my uterus growing and is perfectly normal. I'm ready to move into a sports bra from all the pain I've been having in the chest area. It's getting to the point where hugs hurt, BAD! And I have my first ultrasound tomorrow afternoon so I'm sure I'll be blogging Friday with the results. I'm really really hoping I get to hear the baby's heart beat.
HOW FAR ALONG: 9 weeks (baby is the size of a green olive)
SLEEP: I've been able to move my bed time from 8pm to 9pm the last few nights but am still tired a lot of the time.
FOOD CRAVINGS: still wanting grapefruit, but haven't had much. And soup!
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: growing a belly and walking like a penguin :)
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: being in labor! I can mostly thank Doug (James' uncle) for giving me a new found fear of getting the baby from point A to point B
BABY NAMES: I'm going to put these to rest until I find out which sex I'm having. I could go on baby name websites for hours and hours but I'd rather wait til I know :)
Love, Diana :)
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
8 Weeks and Counting.....
So my bestie Jamie gave me a great idea to let everyone know what's going on with the baby week to week, which I'll list below. Of course, I'm having one of those days where I feel extremely nauseous and tired. Oh and did I mention EMOTIONAL!!!??? Who knew this little nugget could already be causing so much havoc on me! Luckily James talked to our good friend Abraham (Double A) last night and his wife is 16 weeks pregnant and he promised me the sickness and tiredness would soon subside. I just hope I make it that long! And being the neurotic control freak I am, I'm worrying about all kinds of things that I can't control and/or don't have to worry about for at least the next 7 months. How is this baby, who will supposedly end up the size of a watermelon, exit from my body?? How bad will the pain be? What if I'm in labor for 20+ hours??? And what happens when the baby gets older and starts getting sick? What will happen to me when my baby throws up??? And what if I get the virus too? These are just some of the questions that I find myself freaking out over on a daily basis....I keep trying to remind myself that it will be my child and I'll love HER no matter what and it won't be so bad if SHE'S the one who is sick, but who am I kidding? I don't do throw up!
On top of worrying about the baby and how this is going to affect me, I'm also worried about the present. I'm so tired I can barely keep my eyes open all day at work. By the time I get home the last thing I get to do is help James with the kids or dinner or cleaning up even! I'm what I like to call a "dish nazi" and the dishes are piled up. I hear that the first trimester is really hard and it's okay if I let things go around the house, but I still feel guilty. And the dishes are definitely NOT doing themselves!
So now that I've gotten all the negative nancy stuff out of the way, I'm going to try to stay positive and happy :) Here's what's going on this week with me and baby....
HOW FAR ALONG: 8 weeks (baby is the size of a kidney bean)
SLEEP: As much as possible! (last night was almost 12 hours, but I find myself uncomfortable during the night)
FOOD CRAVINGS: Not too much so far, this week is grapefruit (thanks Mom!)
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: confirming that I will be having a beautiful baby girl :)
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: pretty much everything I listed above.
BABY NAMES: I love the names Emily, Sophie, Samantha and Christina for a girl. Anthony or Daniel for a boy.
I would love to hear your ideas for names too! I'm hoping this weekend me and Joli can have a girl's day and maybe go shopping and check out some cool baby stuff.
Love, Diana :)
On top of worrying about the baby and how this is going to affect me, I'm also worried about the present. I'm so tired I can barely keep my eyes open all day at work. By the time I get home the last thing I get to do is help James with the kids or dinner or cleaning up even! I'm what I like to call a "dish nazi" and the dishes are piled up. I hear that the first trimester is really hard and it's okay if I let things go around the house, but I still feel guilty. And the dishes are definitely NOT doing themselves!
So now that I've gotten all the negative nancy stuff out of the way, I'm going to try to stay positive and happy :) Here's what's going on this week with me and baby....
HOW FAR ALONG: 8 weeks (baby is the size of a kidney bean)
SLEEP: As much as possible! (last night was almost 12 hours, but I find myself uncomfortable during the night)
FOOD CRAVINGS: Not too much so far, this week is grapefruit (thanks Mom!)
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: confirming that I will be having a beautiful baby girl :)
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: pretty much everything I listed above.
BABY NAMES: I love the names Emily, Sophie, Samantha and Christina for a girl. Anthony or Daniel for a boy.
I would love to hear your ideas for names too! I'm hoping this weekend me and Joli can have a girl's day and maybe go shopping and check out some cool baby stuff.
Love, Diana :)
Monday, May 9, 2011
My First Blog Post :)
YAY! I'm joining the world of blogging :) I'm mostly doing this little blog to track the pregnancy and birth of my first child. I'm 8 weeks pregnant and so far my expected due date is December 19th, 2011. I have some guilt about having a child so close to Christmas but hope my baby will feel loved and thought about no matter what time of year they are born.
I'm 30 years old and have been with my wonderful man for almost 5 yrs now. He has two children from a previous marriage that we raise full time together. He is my best friend, closest ally and biggest cheerleader. He keeps me centered and takes amazing care of me. We always laugh together and have a great time no matter what we're doing. He reminds me daily how wonderful I am :) I love him more than I could ever imagine loving another human being. And I love his children!! They are the reason I get up every morning! I love them to pieces and would do anything for them. My step daughter is Joli (or Joli Bean) and she is 7 years old. She is the smartest little 1st grader you'll ever meet. She loves to read and draw and write letters. She even has her first diary that she writes in regularly. She is very excited to meet the new little bundle growing in my tummy and her and me are hoping that it's a girl so we can go shopping with her and have "girl's day out" as she likes to call it. My step son James III (or Jamesy) is 5 years old. He is my little love bug! I've been in his life since before he was a year old. We bonded in such a way I thought would never happen with a child. He tells me he loves me more than space and that's all I could ever ask for! He loves to play video games like his Daddy and play T-Ball. He's in preschool and will start kindergarten next year. My little man is growing up so fast :(
So a little bit about my situation....I live in San Ramon with my boyfriend and his 2 children. We had been discussing having a child of our own for some time now but decided to pick up the pace mostly due to the kids' ages. We want them to still be able to bond with the new baby and be the best big sister and brother they can be! Little did I realize it would happen so fast but after some shock and denial I'm finally excited to be carrying my first child :)
I decided to start a blog (thanks to my sister) so that my friends and family can see what's happening throughout my pregnancy even if they're not close by. Plus, I'm hoping that writing will help me keep excited and involved in the whole process.
WOW! A lot for my first post and hopefully the following posts will be shorter and to the point, but I'm very excited to be starting this new chapter in my life and having a life in my tummy is new and scary but already rewarding in so many ways!
I'm 30 years old and have been with my wonderful man for almost 5 yrs now. He has two children from a previous marriage that we raise full time together. He is my best friend, closest ally and biggest cheerleader. He keeps me centered and takes amazing care of me. We always laugh together and have a great time no matter what we're doing. He reminds me daily how wonderful I am :) I love him more than I could ever imagine loving another human being. And I love his children!! They are the reason I get up every morning! I love them to pieces and would do anything for them. My step daughter is Joli (or Joli Bean) and she is 7 years old. She is the smartest little 1st grader you'll ever meet. She loves to read and draw and write letters. She even has her first diary that she writes in regularly. She is very excited to meet the new little bundle growing in my tummy and her and me are hoping that it's a girl so we can go shopping with her and have "girl's day out" as she likes to call it. My step son James III (or Jamesy) is 5 years old. He is my little love bug! I've been in his life since before he was a year old. We bonded in such a way I thought would never happen with a child. He tells me he loves me more than space and that's all I could ever ask for! He loves to play video games like his Daddy and play T-Ball. He's in preschool and will start kindergarten next year. My little man is growing up so fast :(
So a little bit about my situation....I live in San Ramon with my boyfriend and his 2 children. We had been discussing having a child of our own for some time now but decided to pick up the pace mostly due to the kids' ages. We want them to still be able to bond with the new baby and be the best big sister and brother they can be! Little did I realize it would happen so fast but after some shock and denial I'm finally excited to be carrying my first child :)
I decided to start a blog (thanks to my sister) so that my friends and family can see what's happening throughout my pregnancy even if they're not close by. Plus, I'm hoping that writing will help me keep excited and involved in the whole process.
WOW! A lot for my first post and hopefully the following posts will be shorter and to the point, but I'm very excited to be starting this new chapter in my life and having a life in my tummy is new and scary but already rewarding in so many ways!
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