Week 10!

So here it is....only week 10 of this crazy journey. Apparently I have over 200 days left. But then again, since the world is ending in October maybe just 140+ days are left. Either way I don't think I'll make it. I know I say this in almost every post, but how could this little nugget less than an eighth of the size of me cause so many changes to my body and emotions!? So far this week I've been feeling stressed, irritable and extremely emotional. Last night I tried to cry quietly in my pillow but James could hear me sniffling and came to find out what was wrong. I didn't have an answer for him, just needed to cry I guess. He can't help but laugh everytime I do which helps me cheer up faster. He likes to imitate my "crying face" and suggested video taping these episodes for me to laugh at down the road. I suggested we NOT video tape. I'm sure I have a horrid crying face but that's for me to make and him to stare at. No proof needed! Luckily he cheers me up everytime by reminding me that I can make it through this and everything will be okay and to try and stop worrying about the things that haven't happened yet and that I can't control. I know he's right but for some reason my emotions haven't figured it out yet.

I had a not so fun dr. appt this week. Yesterday, I had to see my cardiologist who I haven't seen since early 2009 because since I've been pregnant I've been experiencing heart palpitations again. Last time I had this problem was around 2003-2004 and I was diagnosed with Atrial Fibrillation. My heart was in constant Afib and had to be controlled through medications. In 2009 I decided to take my chances and go off the medicine due to the side effects and see if my heart had re-learned it's normal rhythm. I was lucky, because it did and I rarely suffered, if ever, from heart palpitations. I'm assuming that the hormones and changes in my daily "living" are to blame for the palpitations, but my OB wanted to make sure everything was okay. My cardiologist told me that most pregnant women will experience some heart palpitations but because of my history he wants to run some tests and make sure everything looks okay. They did an EKG at the appt. which showed fine (but in the past, all my EKG's would be normal). So the next step is to get an echocardiogram which I've had before and is basically just an ultrasound for my heart and then I get to wear this fun holter monitor. It's the size of a walkman from the 80's strapped to my gut and wires hanging all over me for 48 hours. It's no fun because I can't shower for the those 2 days (gross!) and I always have to wear loose fitting clothes but if it must be done! And the cardiologist also told me that even if they find my heart is back in Afib there's nothing they can do until after the baby is born and I'm not breast feeding anymore. All the medications they use to control your heart are known to cause birth defects. Which is fine with me, I wouldn't want to go back on the medication anyways. It just means that if it doesn't go away after the baby is born, I'll probably have to get an ablation. My Dad had a heart ablation a few years ago and it's pretty low risk and effective but something about the words "heart" and "surgery" just don't sit well with me, so hopefully that won't be the case!

Last night Joli said she will be disappointed if I'm not having a girl, but will try to be happy with the baby anyways. I'm glad she's so understanding because I, on the other hand, am not. I've decided that my only option is to have a girl. Sorry boys, but let's face it. You are slower to learn than girls, more high energy and defiant and you have penis'!! I'm not okay with any of that! Joli is like a wonderful, pretty princess. She doesn't like to be messy, does what she's told the first time and always uses her manors. Jamesy on the other hand....is a BOY! Point made! Not in my uterus, no sir!

HOW FAR ALONG: 10 weeks (the baby is the size of a kumquat. What the hell is a kumquat???) Also, my jeans are getting very TIGHT! In my biggest pair of "fat jeans" already and they are getting snug quickly.

SLEEP:  Last weekend I slept 12 hours both Friday and Saturday night and took 3 hour naps both days!!! I'm still exhausted...

FOOD CRAVINGS: None this week. The nausea has been too intense

WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Jamie's birthday so I can splurge with a glass of wine!!

WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: My next emotional breakdown...you never know when they'll hit!

BABY NAMES:  6 more weeks til I CONFIRM I'm having a little baby girl!!!


Love, Diana :)