I can't believe I've made it this far!!! I thought for sure I would have just dropped dead from anxiety or stress by now, but I made it! Now I'm in the final stretch and just so excited to meet Emily and to see what she looks like. Hold her and kiss her and see her personality! AH! I'm so excited!
Well I completely forgot to blog last week but nothing exciting happened anyways. This week however has been a different story. I started off Monday with an appt. to see my OB for my monthly check up. It....was not good. Well, my Dr.'s fine but I'm not happy. I've gained a total of 19 pounds since I got pregnant and am measuring between 29 and 30 weeks when I should just be at 28. He said it's not a big deal at this point and it's okay that I'm putting on some pounds but I'm a wreck! And the worse part is I can't stop eating. I'm hungry all the time and everything sounds good to me. I'm hoping I don't do too much damage these next 2 months, but with the holidays around the corner I'm a little nervous. At the same time, I kinda don't care. hahaha I just want to enjoy what part of this pregnancy I can and with all the ailments I've had, I think I deserve to eat what I want, when I want for the next few months :)
Other than that shock of weight gain news on Monday, I've been having a great week! My Momma is in town visiting and staying with us and what a relief it is to have some help! I feel like I'm exploding with stress, why I don't exactly know, but having my Mom here is such a help. She's been great with the kids and she gets them up and dressed in the mornings and makes them breakfast. She helps with teeth at bedtime and reads them stories before bed. They love having her here and it's so nice to have a break from the day to day grind. I'm going to be so sad when she leaves tomorrow and I know the kids will be bummed that Grandma Sue isn't there to stuff them with goodies and buy them toys. hahaha The night she got here we spent some time organizing Emily's room with all her clothes and shoes and goodies. I can't believe how much stuff I have already! And Grandma Sue ordered the crib so I should be getting that tomorrow or next week and I'm super excited to put it together and get her room going :) It's also a little scary to know that I'll be responsible for this little life and she'll be in this room sooner than I think. I just hope I can juggle it all without any major catastrophes. And if it weren't for James, I would be 20 times more nervous. But knowing he's done this twice already and his kids survived gives me hope that Emily will be okay too :)
The downsides to my pregnancy are still rampant. I'm getting really bad headaches once a week and the indigestion is as bad as ever. I should seriously buy some stock in Zantac. I found out I'm anemic so I've been having to take iron supplements along with my prenatals. And the kicking!!! I know it's good that she's moving so much but I just want a break. She keeps finding my bladder and it's like she knows it's a no no zone and just pounds away at it. Now when I lay down and she moves, my stomach moves like a body of water and you can see it. It's kinda creepy but also neat. It's like she knows when she's kicking and I want someone to see it or feel it because as soon as I start talking she stops. So anytime I try to have my Mom or James or the kids feel it, as soon as I say "hey, check it out she's kicking" she stops and I look like an idiot. Figures....
Last Sunday I declared Pamper Diana Day and I enjoyed a wonderful afternoon of some personal TLC. I got a pedicure, my finger nails painted, my eyebrows waxed and a prenatal massage. It was so nice and relaxing except for the fact that Emily kicked me VIOLENTLY the entire massage which made it a little hard to relax. But it was still a great way to spend my day and I loved every second of it!
HOW FAR ALONG: 28 weeks (baby is about 15 inches long and weighs 2-3 pds.)
SLEEP: Indigestion, hip pain and leg cramps = no sleep
FOOD CRAVINGS: I think I'm leaning more towards salty things than sweet. But I don't discriminate, I'll eat anything :)
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Taking time off work to enjoy my little bundle and take the kids to and from school. I love how the kids kiss and hug my belly. They are so excited to have a little sister!
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Gaining any more weight!!! But I'm also not willing to eat less....so, we'll see how that works :)
Love, Diana :)
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Week 26.........Am I done yet?
I'm not quite to my 3rd trimester yet and I'm already getting very antsy. I'm just all around over being pregnant. I know things will get worse when I get bigger and I'll be wishing for these days back, but right now I feel like SHIT! Yep, I said it! I'm tired of being tired all the time. I'm sick of this frickin indigestion and these headaches!! See, if I could just enjoy a drink to calm my nerves and stress I'd probably feel fine. But since that's not an option I'm going to have to start hiding sharp objects soon. The good news is Emily must have heard my cries and pleas to stop kicking because she's not as active as she was last week. At least she's giving me a break at bedtime. Oh and I haven't peed myself this week, so that's something positive. But now the indigestion has gotten so awful I can't sleep anyways. Even after overdosing on Zantac, nothing seems to give me enough relief. I even puked from it being so bad!!
I'm back to feeling like crying most days. I really think it's time I have a Diana day and just do something to pamper myself. But when I even think about planning such a day my mind floods with things that need to be done around the house or family visits or stuff we need to do for the kids and then I think "I can't take a day off!" But I'm pretty sure I'm at my breaking point so planning such a day will be much wiser in the long run than continuously straining myself.
Having the kids go back to school was a big fear of mine. They have new schedules and new daycare and now both of them have homework every night but it's actually been a really nice transition so far. We even had picture day today and I managed to iron their clothes and do their hair! Maybe I'm not as bad of a Mom as I thought. But either way, it's nice to have a routine down and everything moving smoothly. I'm SO proud of Joli because her class had a contest to draw a design for t-shirts and she won! She had the best drawing and all the kids shirts will have her picture on them. She loves school and learning. Jamesy is so different. Not in a bad way, but he's a little more forgetful when it comes to school stuff and definitely not into his handwriting or coloring in the lines. It's amazing the difference between boys and girls. I guess you never realize it until you have two little ones. But they are doing so amazing in school and in their daycare. I'm very proud of both of them!
Nothing much exciting has been going on lately. I keep trying to talk people into carrying Emily for me for the rest of the way but apparently that's impossible :( I have a feeling I'll love her a lot more when I can see and hold her vs. not knowing what the hell she's doing in my belly besides making me fat and miserable. The kids love to give her hugs and kisses every day and I can't wait to tell her that when she's old enough. I really hope Jamesy and Joli don't hate her if she's a crier and keeps us all up at night. haha I know that's a horrible thing to think but seriously, if you were 7 or 5 and some whiny ass baby was constantly waking you up every night on a school night, how would you feel? But with any luck she'll be just like her Momma. A perfect baby! And I'm not trying to be irrational but if you ask my parents, apparently I was the perfect child. Never cried, always smiling and happy and loving. I'm not sure what happened but I like to think I was perfect at one time in my life :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 26 weeks (baby is big! and moves a lot!)
SLEEP: boo acid reflux!!! I refuse to believe my best years of sleep are behind me!
FOOD CRAVINGS: Oh please, I need help! I keep eating and eating and when I'm not eating I'm thinking about eating.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Maternity leave :)
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Not much at this point, I'm just ready to get this party started! Waiting another 3 months sounds horrible.
Love, Diana :)
I'm back to feeling like crying most days. I really think it's time I have a Diana day and just do something to pamper myself. But when I even think about planning such a day my mind floods with things that need to be done around the house or family visits or stuff we need to do for the kids and then I think "I can't take a day off!" But I'm pretty sure I'm at my breaking point so planning such a day will be much wiser in the long run than continuously straining myself.
Having the kids go back to school was a big fear of mine. They have new schedules and new daycare and now both of them have homework every night but it's actually been a really nice transition so far. We even had picture day today and I managed to iron their clothes and do their hair! Maybe I'm not as bad of a Mom as I thought. But either way, it's nice to have a routine down and everything moving smoothly. I'm SO proud of Joli because her class had a contest to draw a design for t-shirts and she won! She had the best drawing and all the kids shirts will have her picture on them. She loves school and learning. Jamesy is so different. Not in a bad way, but he's a little more forgetful when it comes to school stuff and definitely not into his handwriting or coloring in the lines. It's amazing the difference between boys and girls. I guess you never realize it until you have two little ones. But they are doing so amazing in school and in their daycare. I'm very proud of both of them!
Nothing much exciting has been going on lately. I keep trying to talk people into carrying Emily for me for the rest of the way but apparently that's impossible :( I have a feeling I'll love her a lot more when I can see and hold her vs. not knowing what the hell she's doing in my belly besides making me fat and miserable. The kids love to give her hugs and kisses every day and I can't wait to tell her that when she's old enough. I really hope Jamesy and Joli don't hate her if she's a crier and keeps us all up at night. haha I know that's a horrible thing to think but seriously, if you were 7 or 5 and some whiny ass baby was constantly waking you up every night on a school night, how would you feel? But with any luck she'll be just like her Momma. A perfect baby! And I'm not trying to be irrational but if you ask my parents, apparently I was the perfect child. Never cried, always smiling and happy and loving. I'm not sure what happened but I like to think I was perfect at one time in my life :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 26 weeks (baby is big! and moves a lot!)
SLEEP: boo acid reflux!!! I refuse to believe my best years of sleep are behind me!
FOOD CRAVINGS: Oh please, I need help! I keep eating and eating and when I'm not eating I'm thinking about eating.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Maternity leave :)
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Not much at this point, I'm just ready to get this party started! Waiting another 3 months sounds horrible.
Love, Diana :)
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Week 25....getting close!
Apparently I only have 2 more weeks in my 2nd trimester. I'm excited to get this over with but super nervous about what's in store in the last 3 month stretch. All the kicking and indigestion is sure to get worse and I just don't know how I'll be handling it. I was doing so good with being happy all the time and feeling good physically but the past few days have been rough. I'm crying a lot, getting easily frustrated, tossing and turning at night again. The headaches are becoming unbearable and then they're followed by nose bleeds. I look like I have some sort of skin disease. I can't even remember how to spell disease! UGH! It's hard being so frustrated and not being able to do anything about it. The apparent loss of my short term memory is making work very hard. I feel like I can't focus anymore and I'm always scrounging to keep up and playing catch up all day. No wonder my stress levels are through the roof!
Next week should be an adventure. I'm due to take my sugar test to make sure I don't have gestational diabetes. I'm sure the test will be fine, but you never know. I've heard that if you have it, you have to cut down your daily caloric intake to something crazy like 1500. I was a little piggy before the pregnancy and have turned SUPER piggy the last month or so. I will literally shrivel up and die if I have to function off 1500 calories a day. I pretty much pig out because it's the one time Emily will stop kicking me for 5 minutes. She's non stop these days! It was cute in the beginning but I'm over it now. The other morning I was sleeping in and Bella (my love bug kitty cat) was sleeping with me and resting on my belly. The baby kept kicking and kicking so hard I thought for sure Bella would start attacking. But it didn't seem to bother her, just kept me awake :) It is kinda cool that I can see my stomach move when she kicks but after a while it turns from cute to violent and I just beg that she'll stop for any amount of time and let me catch my breath. The other day (I can't believe I'm going to share this), I was picking up a customer late in the day, in their car, and she started kicking me in the bladder SO HARD that I actually tinkled a little bit. I was so embarrassed and couldn't wait to get home. It wasn't that bad, mostly scary that she can get pee out of me with just one ninja kick. But then a few nights later I sneezed really hard and peed my pants too so then I didn't feel so mad at her for making me pee :)
However, I do have something great to look forward to and that's my baby shower! A date has been picked and I can't wait to see everyone and celebrate my little love muffin with them. My sister and best friend are planning it so I know it will be lots of fun and hopefully there will be lots of food (CHIPS AND SALSA GIRLS!). It's weird, but I'm starting to really miss my family lately. I feel like I want my Mom to take care of me everyday and I want to take care of my sister everyday and they're not close by for me to have that. Maybe that's why, but just some weird emotions lately regarding those two ladies. I miss them terribly and wish they were closer but I'm very excited to spend my baby shower with them and hopefully convince them to move closer to me :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 25 weeks (I don't know what vegetable/fruit she resembles this week and I'm over keeping track. But she's probably 2 pds)
SLEEP: I was having such a nice streak of good sleep and it's gone again :( My hips started hurting and I just can't get comfortable at night. The headaches and kicking don't seem to help much either.
FOOD CRAVINGS: I love food! All food, I won't discriminate. If it's edible, I'll scarf it like it's my last meal.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: The baby shower!
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: I'm starting to get a little nervous the closer the due date is approaching. I really really hope she doesn't show up past her due date.
Love, Diana :)
Next week should be an adventure. I'm due to take my sugar test to make sure I don't have gestational diabetes. I'm sure the test will be fine, but you never know. I've heard that if you have it, you have to cut down your daily caloric intake to something crazy like 1500. I was a little piggy before the pregnancy and have turned SUPER piggy the last month or so. I will literally shrivel up and die if I have to function off 1500 calories a day. I pretty much pig out because it's the one time Emily will stop kicking me for 5 minutes. She's non stop these days! It was cute in the beginning but I'm over it now. The other morning I was sleeping in and Bella (my love bug kitty cat) was sleeping with me and resting on my belly. The baby kept kicking and kicking so hard I thought for sure Bella would start attacking. But it didn't seem to bother her, just kept me awake :) It is kinda cool that I can see my stomach move when she kicks but after a while it turns from cute to violent and I just beg that she'll stop for any amount of time and let me catch my breath. The other day (I can't believe I'm going to share this), I was picking up a customer late in the day, in their car, and she started kicking me in the bladder SO HARD that I actually tinkled a little bit. I was so embarrassed and couldn't wait to get home. It wasn't that bad, mostly scary that she can get pee out of me with just one ninja kick. But then a few nights later I sneezed really hard and peed my pants too so then I didn't feel so mad at her for making me pee :)
However, I do have something great to look forward to and that's my baby shower! A date has been picked and I can't wait to see everyone and celebrate my little love muffin with them. My sister and best friend are planning it so I know it will be lots of fun and hopefully there will be lots of food (CHIPS AND SALSA GIRLS!). It's weird, but I'm starting to really miss my family lately. I feel like I want my Mom to take care of me everyday and I want to take care of my sister everyday and they're not close by for me to have that. Maybe that's why, but just some weird emotions lately regarding those two ladies. I miss them terribly and wish they were closer but I'm very excited to spend my baby shower with them and hopefully convince them to move closer to me :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 25 weeks (I don't know what vegetable/fruit she resembles this week and I'm over keeping track. But she's probably 2 pds)
SLEEP: I was having such a nice streak of good sleep and it's gone again :( My hips started hurting and I just can't get comfortable at night. The headaches and kicking don't seem to help much either.
FOOD CRAVINGS: I love food! All food, I won't discriminate. If it's edible, I'll scarf it like it's my last meal.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: The baby shower!
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: I'm starting to get a little nervous the closer the due date is approaching. I really really hope she doesn't show up past her due date.
Love, Diana :)
Friday, September 2, 2011
Week 24!
So I only have 3 more weeks in my 2nd trimester and then it's off to the final stretch! Part of me feels like this time has been flying by and the other part of me (the pregnant part) feels like this whole process is taking forever. I'm definitely feeling more and more ready for little Emily to get here. I'm sure as soon as she does I'll be begging the Dr. to put her back in, but right now I'm just ready to get this over with. I really want my body back to myself. It's so weird to feel her kicking and moving around. I wish I could see what she's up to in there. It still feels like a huge bird is stuck in my stomach and flapping its wings furiously to get out! The cool part though, is if I lay on my side or my back I can actually see my stomach move when she kicks (which is ALL THE TIME!). I want people to feel it but it seems as soon as I move or put someone's hand on my stomach she stops.
I have all sorts of pregnancy symptoms. Some bizarre and some expected but so far no swelling which is nice. I keep checking my rings to make sure they don't get too snug but I think I have a couple more months before that whole nightmare starts. At least I hope I do! I keep telling myself I'm not going to read about anymore pregnancy stuff on The Baby Center's website. Everything I read freaks me out and I've decided that I'd rather not know and just be surprised :) But then they send me these e-mails that have really interesting subject lines and I think "yeah, I wanna know what the 20 pregnancy myths are" No, Diana! No you don't! So one of them was "Is it true that my baby will resemble the size I was as a baby?" Well, since I was close to 10 pds when I was born, I was curious to know if this was true or a myth (fingers crossed for myth!!) Um, yeah. Of course it's true!! And they say it takes after the Mom's side too!! And then mothers commented that they had the same experience. So now I'm a little nervous. I don't want to give birth to some 20 pd kid! My parents still joke that I could hold my head up when I was born and people thought someone had left their baby in the hospital for a month as I lay in the incubator twice the size of the other newborns. And then they sent another e-mail titled "What will your body look like right after giving birth" and I think, okay. That can't be that bad to read. Maybe I'll just skip to the part where it tells me how much weight I'll lose in the first few days....WRONG! They spell out all kinds of creepy stuff that's going to happen to my body afterwards! I really need to stop reading up on this stuff. Again, I like surprises! If I don't know what to expect, I won't expect anything :)
Nothing too new is going on, my belly seems to be expanding at a very rapid pace. I'm eating like a little piglet. The kids' mom left for Texas this week so they were finally home, in their own rooms and beds. I was so excited to see them and spend time with them but Joli is taking it really hard (as usual). It's hard to stay positive and not get angry at her Mother when I see how upset her leaving makes Joli. It reminds me of being a child myself. When she's upset, I'm upset. And the worse part is that there's nothing I can do. There's nothing or anyone who can replace that sadness in Joli's heart when her Mom is gone and it's hard because I just want to fix it. Hopefully after a few days she'll be okay, but right now the house feels like a funeral home!
Oh, and I forgot to share in my past blogs about my new found anxiety towards pregnant women. I just don't like them. James and I did the hospital walk through with about 10 other couples. I know I did it early but I'm very nervous and wanted to be prepared and know what the hospital would look like, the rooms, the nursery, how to get there, etc. Well...these other women were ready to pop!! Most of them only had 2-3 weeks left in their pregnancy!! All I could do was look around the room at these women, paranoid that one of them was going to pop a baby out at any second. It got too much and we left early. Then last Saturday I got a much needed pedicure. As soon as I start to relax, a pregnant woman comes in to get a mani/pedi and sits right next to me. I hear her tell the lady that she is 37 weeks!!! That's like, due date week!!! What the hell is she doing out in public??? The rest of the time, I just stared at her wondering if she would give birth right then and there. So I've decided to try and avoid really pregnant women for the time being. They throw me into an instant panic!
HOW FAR ALONG: 24 weeks (the baby weighs about 1.5 lbs and if she's anything like me she's HUGE!)
SLEEP: Getting a little better. I still wake up easily, and it takes me a good 30 seconds to roll over.
FOOD CRAVINGS: FEED ME! I'm just hungry all the time and everything sounds good at this point.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Having a 3 day weekend to spend with my family.
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Emily getting much bigger. I wonder how I can convince my Dr. that she should come out once she weighs 6 lbs....
Love, Diana :)
I have all sorts of pregnancy symptoms. Some bizarre and some expected but so far no swelling which is nice. I keep checking my rings to make sure they don't get too snug but I think I have a couple more months before that whole nightmare starts. At least I hope I do! I keep telling myself I'm not going to read about anymore pregnancy stuff on The Baby Center's website. Everything I read freaks me out and I've decided that I'd rather not know and just be surprised :) But then they send me these e-mails that have really interesting subject lines and I think "yeah, I wanna know what the 20 pregnancy myths are" No, Diana! No you don't! So one of them was "Is it true that my baby will resemble the size I was as a baby?" Well, since I was close to 10 pds when I was born, I was curious to know if this was true or a myth (fingers crossed for myth!!) Um, yeah. Of course it's true!! And they say it takes after the Mom's side too!! And then mothers commented that they had the same experience. So now I'm a little nervous. I don't want to give birth to some 20 pd kid! My parents still joke that I could hold my head up when I was born and people thought someone had left their baby in the hospital for a month as I lay in the incubator twice the size of the other newborns. And then they sent another e-mail titled "What will your body look like right after giving birth" and I think, okay. That can't be that bad to read. Maybe I'll just skip to the part where it tells me how much weight I'll lose in the first few days....WRONG! They spell out all kinds of creepy stuff that's going to happen to my body afterwards! I really need to stop reading up on this stuff. Again, I like surprises! If I don't know what to expect, I won't expect anything :)
Nothing too new is going on, my belly seems to be expanding at a very rapid pace. I'm eating like a little piglet. The kids' mom left for Texas this week so they were finally home, in their own rooms and beds. I was so excited to see them and spend time with them but Joli is taking it really hard (as usual). It's hard to stay positive and not get angry at her Mother when I see how upset her leaving makes Joli. It reminds me of being a child myself. When she's upset, I'm upset. And the worse part is that there's nothing I can do. There's nothing or anyone who can replace that sadness in Joli's heart when her Mom is gone and it's hard because I just want to fix it. Hopefully after a few days she'll be okay, but right now the house feels like a funeral home!
Oh, and I forgot to share in my past blogs about my new found anxiety towards pregnant women. I just don't like them. James and I did the hospital walk through with about 10 other couples. I know I did it early but I'm very nervous and wanted to be prepared and know what the hospital would look like, the rooms, the nursery, how to get there, etc. Well...these other women were ready to pop!! Most of them only had 2-3 weeks left in their pregnancy!! All I could do was look around the room at these women, paranoid that one of them was going to pop a baby out at any second. It got too much and we left early. Then last Saturday I got a much needed pedicure. As soon as I start to relax, a pregnant woman comes in to get a mani/pedi and sits right next to me. I hear her tell the lady that she is 37 weeks!!! That's like, due date week!!! What the hell is she doing out in public??? The rest of the time, I just stared at her wondering if she would give birth right then and there. So I've decided to try and avoid really pregnant women for the time being. They throw me into an instant panic!
HOW FAR ALONG: 24 weeks (the baby weighs about 1.5 lbs and if she's anything like me she's HUGE!)
SLEEP: Getting a little better. I still wake up easily, and it takes me a good 30 seconds to roll over.
FOOD CRAVINGS: FEED ME! I'm just hungry all the time and everything sounds good at this point.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Having a 3 day weekend to spend with my family.
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Emily getting much bigger. I wonder how I can convince my Dr. that she should come out once she weighs 6 lbs....
Love, Diana :)
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