Week 26.........Am I done yet?

I'm not quite to my 3rd trimester yet and I'm already getting very antsy. I'm just all around over being pregnant. I know things will get worse when I get bigger and I'll be wishing for these days back, but right now I feel like SHIT! Yep, I said it! I'm tired of being tired all the time. I'm sick of this frickin indigestion and these headaches!! See, if I could just enjoy a drink to calm my nerves and stress I'd probably feel fine. But since that's not an option I'm going to have to start hiding sharp objects soon. The good news is Emily must have heard my cries and pleas to stop kicking because she's not as active as she was last week. At least she's giving me a break at bedtime. Oh and I haven't peed myself this week, so that's something positive. But now the indigestion has gotten so awful I can't sleep anyways. Even after overdosing on Zantac, nothing seems to give me enough relief. I even puked from it being so bad!!

I'm back to feeling like crying most days. I really think it's time I have a Diana day and just do something to pamper myself. But when I even think about planning such a day my mind floods with things that need to be done around the house or family visits or stuff we need to do for the kids and then I think "I can't take a day off!" But I'm pretty sure I'm at my breaking point so planning such a day will be much wiser in the long run than continuously straining myself.

Having the kids go back to school was a big fear of mine. They have new schedules and new daycare and now both of them have homework every night but it's actually been a really nice transition so far. We even had picture day today and I managed to iron their clothes and do their hair! Maybe I'm not as bad of a Mom as I thought. But either way, it's nice to have a routine down and everything moving smoothly. I'm SO proud of Joli because her class had a contest to draw a design for t-shirts and she won! She had the best drawing and all the kids shirts will have her picture on them. She loves school and learning. Jamesy is so different. Not in a bad way, but he's a little more forgetful when it comes to school stuff and definitely not into his handwriting or coloring in the lines. It's amazing the difference between boys and girls. I guess you never realize it until you have two little ones. But they are doing so amazing in school and in their daycare. I'm very proud of both of them!

Nothing much exciting has been going on lately. I keep trying to talk people into carrying Emily for me for the rest of the way but apparently that's impossible :( I have a feeling I'll love her a lot more when I can see and hold her vs. not knowing what the hell she's doing in my belly besides making me fat and miserable. The kids love to give her hugs and kisses every day and I can't wait to tell her that when she's old enough. I really hope Jamesy and Joli don't hate her if she's a crier and keeps us all up at night. haha I know that's a horrible thing to think but seriously, if you were 7 or 5 and some whiny ass baby was constantly waking you up every night on a school night, how would you feel? But with any luck she'll be just like her Momma. A perfect baby! And I'm not trying to be irrational but if you ask my parents, apparently I was the perfect child. Never cried, always smiling and happy and loving. I'm not sure what happened but I like to think I was perfect at one time in my life :)

HOW FAR ALONG:  26 weeks (baby is big! and moves a lot!)
 
SLEEP: boo acid reflux!!! I refuse to believe my best years of sleep are behind me!

FOOD CRAVINGS: Oh please, I need help! I keep eating and eating and when I'm not eating I'm thinking about eating.

WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Maternity leave :)

WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Not much at this point, I'm just ready to get this party started! Waiting another 3 months sounds horrible.

Love, Diana :)