12 Weeks and A Best Day Ever!

WOW!! So I already had in my head what this week's post was going to be like. And it was going to be SUPER negative. My new shtick is that I am housing Lucifer or LL as I like to call him/her. (little lucifer). He is turning my insides into the depths of hell and trying to kill me from inside my uterus. Well, I was proven wrong today as I had another ultrasound and found no horns growing out of my baby's head. BUT I did get to see his little hands!!! And FINGERS!!! And he was waving at me the whole time. It was so amazing! The nurse kept getting irritated because she was trying to get a specific picture of the baby and he/she was not cooperating but I cried in delight at being able to stare at my little nugget for a full 45 minutes. Even though I had to go pee at one point and do a bunch of exercises where I had to touch my toes and roll over in circles on the bed like a dog to try and get the baby to change positions. Apparently, the little tyrant is already stubborn! He must get it from his Daddy because everyone knows I'm sweet as pie and always do as I'm told :) Anywho, they made me a CD with pictures of the little guy. He's 6.5 cm long and my due date is still Dec. 19th. Their computer said the 17th, but really does it matter? The baby will be here when he/she is ready to be here. I got to see the baby in 3D and then just sat back and the tech moved and bumped my stomach for 30 minutes to try and get it to move around. It was so amazing...that little love bug is in my stomach! Still so hard to believe that in just a few months someone will be calling me "mommy". I think that's the scariest part. I was joking with James last night that I'm not ready to be a mommy so I'm going to have the child refer to me by my first name :) And by joking, I really mean hysterically crying and begging him not to make me go through with this. But back to my most amazing Dr. appt. yet! When we were all done with the ultrasound the Dr. came in to double check that everything looks good (and it does!) and then told me we would do another ultrasound at 20 weeks. Well yesterday, I saw my OB and asked him about my next visit with him (at 16 weeks) to see if we could tell the gender of the baby at that time. And he said probably not, because I'm not scheduled for another ultrasound until 20 weeks and they don't want to do too many. I was SO bummed because I really want to find out who this person is wreaking havoc on my poor innocent body! But the Dr. I saw today said that at 15 weeks I can do a 3D/4D ultrasound that can tell the baby's gender!!! It's not covered by insurance and costs $75 but I think it's totally worth it. So I scheduled an appt on June 30th to find out the sex of my baby :) YAY!! I can't wait to start shopping for the little bugger!

Also at my OB appt. yesterday I found out that I only gained 2 pds since my last visit vs. the 5 I had gained prior to that. I feel a lot better knowing I didn't gain 50 pds so far. With everything I've been stuffing my face with, 2 pounds is pretty amazing. Below is my baby's fingers and hand waving. Hi everyone!!!

My baby must be a fan of Bring It On....JAZZ HANDS!

And here's one of the 3D pics....

Everything I got to find out today and see was so crazy. It's so hard to believe that there is a little life inside of me relying on me to keep it warm and fed. I mean, I can barely take care of myself! What this little guy was thinking picking me as his "host" is beyond me....But don't get me wrong, he's making me pay for it too. I got sick AGAIN late last week with this stupid head cold. Nose stuffed so bad I could hardly breath, nothing brings me any relief. I was also throwing up all day Friday. So I decided to see my regular Dr. to see if there was ANYTHING I could take besides Tylenol. My Dr. was out on Friday so I saw a different one. She just happens to be 3 months pregnant too! And miserable as well. She said she's housing an alien and looked like she hadn't slept in days. She told me I could take some Zyrtec (didn't help one bit) and gave me a Netti pot. Yeah....I'm sooo congested that when I squirted that water and solution mix up my nostrils, it immediately dripped down my throat instead of out my other nostril. She said it sounds like pregnancy congestion. When I read about it online it says it doesn't go away until after the baby is born. I sincerely hope not, because I don't think I'm strong enough to go through this much longer. Still suffering from headaches daily and a little nausea. I also have a super fun cough and lots of gagging. This baby will pay when he/she gets here....oh yes, it will pay....

So this last weekend was my bestie's 30th birthday! To celebrate, her sister set up a surprise brunch in Berkeley. My pregnancy brain has already kicked in and I showed up to the restaurant, cake and gift in hand, on the wrong day. But that's besides the point...When I got there on the right day, one of Jamie's friends was already there and she has a 6 month old baby boy. The CUTEST little thing you ever did see. Everyone was holding him and he was SO happy and just smiled and laughed with everyone. Until it got time for me to hold him....I figured some special Mommy skills would have kicked in by now, but no go. I had no idea how to hold him and he knew I felt awkward and immediately started crying and fussing. So much for my mommy genes kicking in. But I'm hoping once mine gets here some sort of maternal instincts will be here too!

I'm still extremely emotional which I'm attributing to other factors than just pregnancy hormones. I cry or am on the verge of crying about 80% of the day. And when I'm not crying, I'm bitching. At anyone who will listen really. I feel sorry for anyone who has to come into contact with me, work with me or live with me. I know this will get better with time but patience isn't one of my strong suits and in the meantime I'm not making any friends!

I feel like I've written so much but I also have so much more to say! I'll try to save it for another post. Tomorrow is my echocardiogram and I get a fun heart monitor put on me for the next 3 days, so I'm sure I'll have all kinds of bitching to do about that stuff next week :)

HOW FAR ALONG:  12 weeks (baby is the size of a plum)   

SLEEP:  I've cut back on my sleeping a little bit but I'm still tired all the time

FOOD CRAVINGS: Anything high in carbs. I can't get enough of pastas and breads and sodium filled treats!

WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Vegas next week!!! A little lounge time by the pool :)

WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Waiting another 3 weeks to see my little nugget of love!

BABY NAMES:  June 30th is D Day!!! And I've decided I'm not budging on my baby names. James already got to name two kids, he should have no say in the 3rd one :)

Love, Diana :)