I almost forgot to blog this week! It's been pretty crazy lately. Lots going on with the move and getting the house situated and work has been a lot busier than usual. I feel like I'm in this strange middle ground where I'm over the sickness and initial shock of being pregnant but I'm not quite at that stage where I'm preparing to give birth, have a heavy baby laying on my bladder all day and swollen feet. It almost feels like I know a huge transition is coming but I don't know when or where or how to prevent it. I keep comparing my fear of giving birth to being shot. It's like someone is telling me "hey, in a few months on a day and time you won't be expecting it, someone will shoot you. You'll live but it will be painful and traumatizing" Or like those people in those Final Destination movies. They know death is trying to get them but they don't know when or how. I'm sure having a baby isn't as awful as being shot or chased down by death but it's the closest comparison I can relate to at this time.
The good news is I'm still feeling pretty good. My appetite has kicked in full force and I feel like a pig 24 hours a day. I'm constantly shoveling food in my mouth or thinking about what kind of food I want to shovel in my mouth. I don't have any cravings though, at least not yet. I feel like eating fruit a lot more and of course my usual chips and salsa are always on my mind but nothing that I can actually taste in my mouth or HAVE to have.
This last week has been so nice! The kids' mom is in town for a few weeks so she has them full time which is a nice break. I miss them already and want to hug their little bodies as tight as possible, but I definitely can use the break and I'm enjoying all the time I get to spend with James :) No rush in the mornings to get out the door, no rush to get home and figure out dinner. Aahhhhh reality is going to SUCK next week!
We also got to have a date night with James' parents. Just the four of us. We never get to go out like that so it was nice to be able to have a conversation without kids interrupting us. And today I got to go to lunch with the girls. It was a very nice, much needed break from work. And I'm sorry Jamie, but I have to tell this story! One of Jamie's oldest friends, Mercedes, has an 8 month old boy. He is the cutest little thing in the world and every time I see him I get so excited for little Emily to get here. Anyways, Jamie held her little boy while we ate lunch and he peed on her!!! HE PEED THROUGH HIS DIAPER!!! Is this the kind of stuff I have to look forward too??? It was kinda funny though....I'm sure I wouldn't have thought so if he peed on me but he might as well have. I'll have to get used to that sooner or later! And it's nice to be able to ask her a million questions about being a Mom.
On the mommy-to-be front not too much has changed since last week. My belly button is really hard though and about to start sticking out. That freaks me out a little. My belly is slowly but surely growing and it's hard too. Emily is finally making full on ninja kicks and she's mostly active at night but during the day she can be too. The indigestion is unbearable at this point and I've heard rumors that that could mean the baby is growing more hair. If this is the case, my baby is Chewbacca because I have acid reflux 24/7! I also got a chance last weekend to visit my Grandma at her grave site in Lafayette. I miss her so much, especially lately because I can actually picture here holding my baby and smiling at the both of us. I told her about my little nugget and how I'm naming her after the greatest grandma (and Mother if you ask my Dad) to walk the earth. I promised to be as loving to Emily as she was to my Dad. Just maybe more strict :) I did have a little mini breakdown the other night though. I was watching Ice loves Coco (give me a break, there was nothing else on TV!) and Coco's sister went into labor and they showed her and the birthing stuff. I freaked. My jaw hit the floor and I immediately stomped out to James in the living room, did my cry face and proceeded to refuse to give birth. I told him if the dr's said push, I would hold her in. I will no way do this! It looks so scary and chaotic and I just don't see the "natural, beautiful" thing in popping a baby out of your hoohoo! It's just not right....there has to be another way. My goal is to come up with an alternative way to get a baby out of my belly besides c-section and the age old typical way before Emily gets here. I better hurry up!
HOW FAR ALONG: 22 weeks (baby is the size of a spaghetti squash?)
SLEEP: What sleep? My hips hurt SO bad I'm too uncomfortable to sleep for more than 20 minutes at a time
FOOD CRAVINGS: Nothing yet. Maybe when I get bigger I'll start having some cravings.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Holding her in my arms for the first time.
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Trying to find an alternative to giving birth...that may be tricky!
Love, Diana :)
1 comment:
Why don't you just go public with that ish. Haha. JK. I can't believe I didn't freak out. Maybe it's true, once it happens to you, you will just deal with it. I mean, I love that kid like I would my own son! Can't wait for him to meet baby Em.
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