Week 23!

Wow, I actually had to go to my last blog post just to remember which week I'm in. I'm starting to get very excited for little Emily to get here already. Pregnancy is finally kinda fun and not as awful as it was the first 3-4 months but it's still exhausting and I've been under a lot of stress lately so a drink or two or nine sounds really good right about now. I have this completely unrealistic vision of laying on a beach with drinks and only adults once this pregnancy is over. But in reality, I'll be covered in puke, poop and pee and exhausted from lack of sleep. It's like I forget that at the end of this 9 months, there will be a baby that will change my entire life for the rest of my life. Dreams of vacationing in Hawaii with James just the two of us will be put on the back burner, probably until we're in our 60's. Sometimes I wonder if this is really the best decision, or if I'll crack under the pressure but I'm starting to see myself as more of a Mommy and less of a partying 20 yr old Diana. I am the most raunchy person I know and have a weird, inappropriate sense of humor but lately I've been feeling a little reserved. Sometimes, actually offended! It's almost like I know I'm going to be someone's Mom so I can't say certain things or laugh at certain jokes. Hopefully this will pass, because as much as my sense of humor isn't for everyone, it's my favorite personality trait and I don't want to lose it!

I'm still feeling really good. Eating a lot, laughing a lot and just generally feeling better. But goodness! This indigestion or heart burn or acid reflux, whatever the hell it's called is going to kill me before I give birth. There is a constant burn in my throat/stomach and just not enough relief. My hips are feeling a little better, which is a nice break but I'm usually up at least once or twice during the night with really bad acid reflux. And then when I fall back asleep from that I wake up 5 minutes later with leg cramps. I wish I could videotape me during a nights sleep just to see how many times I get up out of bed to ease the cramps and then sit up to help the acid reflux and toss and turn to help my hips. It's a miracle James has been sleeping through this. Oh, and the kicking!!! Good LORD! I was thinking since I didn't feel her until a week or so ago that maybe she would be lazy like her Momma and just lay back and chill/sleep all day. Well...girlfriend is moving! I don't know what she's so excited about or why she just can't sit still but she's already got ADD! Which sounds very familiar to James, Joli and Jamesy. The 3 of them couldn't sit still for 5 minutes if someone offered them each a million dollars! But the cool part is at night when I lay on my side, James can feel her kick now. It's so weird that there is a little person inside my belly and it's kicking me! It almost feels like a bird is trapped in my belly and desperately flapping it's wings to get out.

So it's on week 2 of no kiddies and I'm starting to really really miss them. Joli's first day of 2nd grade was yesterday and I'm a little bummed I didn't get to be there to dress her and walk her to class and pack her backpack with her BUT I'm also really happy that her Mom was here to experience that with her. She is so close with her Mom and I know it was important for the both of them so I'm glad they had that day together. Also, my little man Jamesy started Kindergarten. I still remember the very first time I laid eyes on him and he just stared at me like "who is this stranger!" but he warmed up to me so fast and I miss holding him, miss changing his diapers, miss his beautiful baby curls. UH! I could cry just thinking about how much they've grown. But again, I couldn't be happier that they got to share this time with their Mom and I know there will always be next year for me to be there on their first day again :)

This weekend James is going to Washington for a friends wedding so I have the house to myself. Part of me is really excited because I can eat all the chips and salsa I want for 2 whole days with no one to stop me! The other part is a little sad that I'll get lonely. But normally I love to have ME time so I'm going to make the best of it regardless. But I do rely on James to do pretty much everything so it's going to suck to have to get my own glass of water. hahaha jk.

Oh and my Dad keeps telling me to put in here how much he loves and how much I love him. So Dad, I love you too!! And I know you "love your little girl" :)

HOW FAR ALONG:  23 weeks (the baby is the size of....who knows!? She's frickin big!)

SLEEP: I will overdose on Tums this weekend and try to catch up :)

FOOD CRAVINGS: Right now, anything that's edible I want to shove in my mouth! (that doesn't sound right...)

WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: CHIPS AND SALSA!!! CHIPS AND SALSA!!! JAMES CAN'T STOP ME!!!

WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO:  Waiting til December for my little love muffin!


Love, Diana :)