Week 18 and 19.....Better late than never!

Oopsy! I got so busy last week I forgot to blog! So I'll basically just do a recap of last week and this week together :)

So much has been going on....I'm feeling better and better every day as far as stomach issues go. Of course, now new symptoms have started kicking in. I'm battling my 4th bloody nose as I type this, since last week. I called my Dr. to confirm, but I already knew this was considered "normal" and to be expected during pregnancy. However, I have not had a bloody nose since I was maybe 7? years old and had forgotten how gross they are. The first one struck me on an already downhill day. I had found a house on Craigslist in San Ramon in our price range and right next to the kids' school and called on it immediately. Me, James and the kiddies went to go check it out that night. We knew immediately we HAD to have this house but were feeling like it was impossible. James had convinced me there is no way we'd qualify and I started picturing the 5 of us living in 2 bedroom apartments for the rest of our lives. Then when we got home, I accidentally hit James' car with my car while parallel parking on the street. I had been suffering from a HORRIBLE headache all day and this was just the icing on the cake. At least I thought.....while doing the dishes Jamesy came up and asked me why there was red stuff on my face. I couldn't figure out what he was trying to say until I wiped my nose and saw a lot of blood. After laying down on the couch with my head back for a few minutes, it went away but not before making a mess. Jamesy suffers from lots of bloody noses so he could sympathize with me and told me what to do to make it stop. He is the most adorable 5 yr old EVER!

Anywho, after that little mishap I was off on a plane 2 days later for Portland, OR. to visit my sister. I was REALLY freaked out about flying since I'm not a good flyer and being pregnant, I just wasn't sure what to expect but the ride went off without a hitch! Well....except for the stinky man next to me who got up to vomit once the plane landed. But I digress...I rented a car and drove to visit a good friend April in Salem, Or. On my way I saw a Coach outlet store calling my name and decided to stop in and just check out the deals. While admiring a beautiful purse on clearance my phone rang and it was the house we had seen earlier that week! They decided to rent to us! We got the house!!!! I can't tell you how excited I was. I dropped the purse, ran outside and started making phone calls. I called James who I'm pretty sure didn't believe me at first. After that I called the fam. Mom, Dad, and MIL Tracy to let them all know the good news!!! I still can't believe we're going to be in a home. Everyone will have their own room, I can actually decorate the baby's room! We have a backyard for the kids to play in, a garage for our cars! It's just so amazing and exciting. I haven't had the pleasure of living in an actual house since I was maybe 18 yrs old so it's been a while and very very missed.

My trip to Oregon was wonderful to say the least! I loved my visit with April. She has 3 kids so she gave me some good advice and helped calm my worries about giving birth. I got to spend lots of quality time with my sister. We laughed and laughed, she took great care of me the whole time and it was so relaxing. The weather was perfect and I could not have asked for a better trip! We also got to buy lots of stuff for the baby. Auntie Julio got a really cute headband and hat and then a onesie that says "with luck I'll be a duck". I got her a little tutu and matching onesie for a potential photo shoot with Marcie (wink wink).

I can't believe one of the pictures is actually right side up! It's a miracle!! Anyways, these are the shots I took on my phone. One the day I left, I found two cute pillows that hold missing teeth and bought one for each of the kiddies. Joli had just lost a tooth that day so she could use her new pillow to hold it in :) I also bought them name placards that hang from their bedroom doors. They are so excited to have their own rooms!

So some baby stats....I either had a dream last night that I felt the baby moving or it really happened. I can't figure it out yet nor can I remember it for the life of me but the baby was definitely moving and I definitely felt it, just not sure if it was reality or not. Baby Em is also sucking my brain right out of my dome! I can't remember anything, am having problems focusing at work and have been making silly mistakes all day every day lately. I'm feeling pretty useless right about now. Like I'm a hazard to society and should be kept up at home until it passes. The headaches are still frequent and PAINFUL! Lots of cramping and pain from my stomach stretching but I'm starting to get too excited to even care. I can't wait to hold her one day and feed her and cloth her and play with her. I hope she laughs a lot like her Mommy and is a happy carefree baby!


HOW FAR ALONG:  19 weeks (baby is 6 inches long)

SLEEP:  I was a champ on my vacation and didn't nap once! But I'm paying for it now. haha very very sleepy....

FOOD CRAVINGS: My appetite is coming back, but I can really only eat small portions. Snack food I'm great at, but put a meal in front of me and I'll stare and pick at it.

WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Setting up baby's room, enjoying a real home with my beautiful family and continuing to feel better and better!

WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: uh, still not too sure about this whole giving birth thing.






Love, Diana :) 

Week 17........Pictures!!

So I think it's finally starting to happen. I'm actually feeling (dare I say it!) EXCITED!!! Still nervous too, don't get me wrong, this is the most traumatizing experience I've ever encountered, but at least there's some excitement and happiness coming from all the worry and nerves.

Last Sunday, James and I and the kids went to Babies 'R Us to look for a baby book. I've been trying to find a specific one that has folders and stuff for cd's and pregnancy tests but Target and Hallmark didn't have any such thing. It's all the typical baby books documenting their first solid food and first solid poop! I'm not ready for that yet. BUT, we found a pregnancy book instead and it was perfect!! So besides my blog, I have a book (with folders) to keep my pregnancy tests in, the pictures, the cd's and DVD's and the cards I've gotten congratulating me on being a mommy-to-be! It's very in depth and has tons of space for any extra information I need to store, PLUS a calendar so I can mark all my dr. appts. and ultrasound appts. along with any other milestones I want to remember the dates of. I still can't figure out how to get the pictures to flip right side up...

 
That part was fun, but since we were already at Babies 'R Us, James said we could walk around and just look at all the things we would need for the baby. Talk about overwhelming!!! We passed bedroom sets with cribs, dressers and changing tables. Then there was the playpen section. I mean, I didn't even THINK about the fact that we'd need a playpen!!! And then the car seats...those things are SO expensive!!! And highchairs! How could I have forgotten to consider where the baby would eat?? Obviously she's not going to sit on the chairs like her older siblings! Then we passed the bassinets. Seriously? We have to have a mobile crib for our room plus a crib for her room?? Where is she going to be sleeping all this time?? And then a rocking chair for Mom and baby. And then bath tubs and bouncers and bedding. It was all so insane!! Not to mention, PRICEY! And that's not even considering clothes, bottles, diapers, toys, food. We better start playing the lottery or we are screwed. I can picture it now....our baby eating off the floor, wearing towels as diapers and naked. I did fall in love with this bedding set though, so I sent the link for it to my sister and Mom and told them to start saving! I know, priorities right? But they suggested that we start our registry sooner rather than later. Good idea! So I spent a good time on Monday picking out two options for every thing we need before baby gets here so that James could have a say too. Of course, he only gets a say of the two options I give him, but that's okay. He tends to be the more materialistic of the two of us and if he could pick, we'd have $300 playpens. I tend to be a little on the cheap side when it comes to these things. Plus, the baby is just going to puke, poop and spill on the stuff anyways. Why spend so much?

For fun, I decided to check out Juicy Couture's diaper bags. Me and my Mom saw a woman with one and with a Juicy stroller in Las Vegas and we've been trying to convince my sister that she should buy it for me :) Anywho, no go on the diaper bags, I mean 300 bucks for a stupid bag that's going to eventually hold dirty diapers and spilled milk?? No thank you! BUT I did find this absolutely adorable outfit that I've now named the "take baby home from the hospital outfit" I immediatley e-mailed it to James but he doesn't seem too convinced yet that it's a must have. You can see it by clicking below and then convince James that we should buy it :)

Juicy Fit

Nothing else too exciting has been going on this last week. I've been suffering from HORRIBLE headaches and lots of stomach issues, but that's nothing new. The kids are getting really excited! Last week when I told Jamesy and Joli that the baby can hear us now Jamesy yanked my mouth open and yelled down "HELLO" to the baby. I tried to explain that she can hear him through my belly just fine, but he's intent on shouting through my throat instead :) And I also had to explain that she can't understand WHAT we're saying, just hear our voices. Everytime me or Daddy swear (which is a lot!) he tells us to stop because the baby can hear us. "No bad words!" he says.

Supposedly the baby's bones are starting to harden more and she will start doubling in size these next few weeks. And the umbilical cord is hardening too (gross!) and I can see my belly button getting squished more and more. It's quickly becoming an outie! I don't like that idea either. I mostly just keep waiting to feel her move. I keep playing my favorite bands so if she decides to move while my songs are playing, I'll know she has my taste in music :) It's starting to hurt my lower abs if I move too quickly to get up or when I get out of my car. And I'm cramping a lot which I'm sure is from my belly growing. I finally got some chewable prenatal vitamins!! So now I have no excuse to skip them...even though I still think they are unnecessary.....

I also took some pictures of my belly last night for my friend Tammy. First James took a few, but he's not a very good photographer and I'm not feeling very camera ready so I tried to take some myself in the mirror. I'm sure they'll all show sideways (stupid computer!) but I'll post them anyways so you can see where I'm at. Even though there are plenty of women who don't show yet, I already look like I'm in my 6th month!

I take my 2nd trimester blood screening tests today and don't have another follow up or ultrasound appt. until August 1st but I'm already getting antsy to see my little girl again! Although....I was a lot more excited before The Bump (pregnancy website) decided it was necessary to send me e-mails letting me know what to expect after childbirth. If you dare (and I'm so mad I did!) to see what they're saying, have a look below! Also they sent me another link just yesterday to let me know all the different poops that are normal for baby. Luckily, I will not fall for that trick twice and am in no way going to see what constitutes as safe poop or problem poop. Basically, after reading this, I've decided I want a c-section. A planned, month in advance, c-section.

After birth nastiness

So here's what's going on with baby!

HOW FAR ALONG:  17 weeks (baby weighs the same as an onion)

SLEEP:  So tired! After a trip to the store on Sunday, I had to nap for 3 hours.

FOOD CRAVINGS: I'm starting to want food again, mostly because I'm hungry just sick right after I eat anything. But fruit always sounds appealing. I can't get enough strawberries. But seem to only be able to eat chips and salsa.

WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Getting a plan under way so I know what steps I need to take to get there.

WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Working through the rest of this pregnancy, giving birth, trying to handle 3 children and figuring out a living situation. No wonder I stress so much!!

Love, Diana :)

Week 16

I don't know who I was kidding, thinking I was a strong enough person to have a baby! I must have been out of my mind....I suffer from anxiety, pretty bad. Normally I'm medicated and that pretty much alleviates the nerves but now I'm just a giant open wound. And like a skittish cat, I'm constantly nervous and jumping at every sound. The worse part is I have nervous stomach (sort of like IBS but caused my anxiety and stress) and my body likes to react before my mind can even realize that I may be panicking. So the last few days, weeks even, have been filled with fun anxiety and stomach issues. I can only imagine how this is affecting Emily (yes I'm calling her by her "name", maybe if I say it enough James will start to agree with it). This poor little bean is just trying to chill out and get her grow on while sleeping and nesting in my belly and all I can do for her is FREAK OUT!!! 24 HOURS A DAY!!! If she comes out even semi-normal and not phased by my internal chaos, I will die of shock! But I can't worry about that now...I have to focus on remaining calm......okay. That lasted 5 seconds, I'm not calm anymore!!

I saw my OB yesterday for my little monthly visit and check in. He was a little concerned that I lost 4 pounds instead of gaining, but I explained what's been going on with my anxiety and stuff and he said we'll just "watch it". Whatever that means. To James, it means freak out and force feed me and count my vitamins to make sure I'm taking them. But I honestly know it's not a big deal. I'm sure I'll gain all the weight back and then some. He also measured my stomach and I'm at 17 inches. Apparently each inch sort of represents 1 week, so I'm about where I should be. I also mentioned some "leaking" going on lately and he tested to make sure it wasn't amniotic fluid that I was leaking. He also quickly ran the ultrasound thing on my stomach to make sure my sack is full, which it is, so I'm good there too. He swears he felt the baby kick him when he pushed on my stomach but I didn't feel anything. I don't know if I would even know what I'm feeling if and when the baby starts moving but he was pretty certain he had gotten kicked. I'm still suffering from really bad headaches, but there's not much I can do about them. I asked him about my hair growth and he said the vitamins will cause my hair EVERYWHERE to grow, not just on my head. What a bummer that is!

Other than my eventful pregnancy woes, I was finally able to have some time to pamper myself. Yesterday, I went in for a manicure and pedicure courtesy of James. It was nice to not have to worry about anything for 5 minutes and now I have beautiful hands and feet! Now if I could get my hair done, I'd be set :)

According to my Baby Center weekly e-mails, the baby is going to double it's size and weight in the next few weeks. Also, she can hear now!! I better start working on my f bombs so her first work isn't FORK! According to my Dr. I should start to feel her move in the next 2 weeks or so. Personally, I don't want to feel her move. What if she's violent and restless? What if she hurts me? Or herself?? Can babies hurt themselves in the womb?? I bet if they could, my baby would be the one to do it. Poke her eye out on accident or something. And I keep finding myself rolling over and sleeping on my stomach. I hope this is okay and that I don't squish her.

For the most part, I'm starting to get really excited for Emily to get here. I want to hold her and sleep with her and play with her and do all the Mommy things that don't require inhabiting my body. I need my Diana back and she's in hiding until this baby gets here! Today, a customer told me about how her 2nd child jumped up in her stomach so violently that she sprung a leak and started leaking tons of amniotic fluid so they had to do an emergency C-section a month before she was due. Part of me thought, "holy shit, that's scary!" but the other part thought, "well the baby weighed a lot less than expected which was probably less painful and she didn't have to go through labor pains!" So Emily, if you can hear me, please spring a leak or do something that requires you to be yanked before your time so A) You're not born so close to Xmas and B) so Mommy doesn't have to experience labor :)


HOW FAR ALONG:  16 weeks (baby is the size of an avocado!)

SLEEP:  Back to almost normal sleeping habits. But I do miss my naps!

FOOD CRAVINGS: This is the first and will most likely be the last time in my life that I actually hate food. I can't stand to think about it or eat it.

WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Everything else in my life to fall into place so I can enjoy being pregnant and not be such an anxious stress case all the time :)

WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Today I read that women have bladder problems after giving birth!!! WHAT THE HELL??

Love, Diana :)

Week 15.....THE ULTIMATE ULTRASOUND!

I think that ultrasounds should be done daily...simply because I'm an emotional wreck and have not been consistently excited about being pregnant OR being a Mommy. Ultrasounds remind me what an amazing journey this is and how crazy the world works, that I can grow a little nugget of my own in my belly.

I've been feeling a lot better the past few days which is a nice change and today was the day I found out what I'm carrying......

IT'S A GIRL!!!!! 

Little Emily Ann DeLucia is growing in my tummy and she has super long arms and legs which gives me hope that she will be a tall beautiful genius like her mother :) Not that short people aren't cute too but let's face it, my girl can play basketball, reach the high shelves that Daddy will never reach, possibly model! Well, not if she's got the Wigdzinski chin but you never know. Protruding chins might be the "in" thing in about 20 years :)

Not only do I love the name Emily, but it means so much to me. The greatest Grandma that ever lived was my grandma Emily. She was and probably will be the only person who has truly loved me unconditionally. The look in her eyes when she saw me made me know how very special I was to her. I've never felt so loved and cared for as I did with Grandma. She was a huge part of me and my sister's lives when we were young. No matter what we did, we could do no wrong in her eyes. I remember the last time I saw her before she passed away, she still had that loving look in her eyes that let me know everything would be okay and that she loved me more than she could ever express. I wish she was here today to share in the joy of her great granddaughter being born, but I already see her face in my little girl...

The middle name Ann is my sister's middle name. She is such an important part of my life. We have been through so much together and are stronger because of it and I want to incorporate her name with my baby's name in some way. It's also James' sister Jenny's middle name. She is such a beautiful person and loves her brother more than anything in the world! Just like my Emily, James can do no wrong in her eyes. She loves him SO much and seeing the two of them together, you can see how much they care for one another.

I was very lucky to have James' parents there with me today as well as the kids. We were all so excited and anxious to find out. When the technician told us it's a girl, Joli immediately jumped up yelling that she was right and knew all along it was a girl! And me and Tracy (James' mom) held hands and cried with delight! I think little Jamesy is a little bummed, but being surrounded by women his whole life will pay off when he's older and he'll thank us for that :) Baby Daddy is a little shocked right now. He worries SO much about Joli growing up too fast, dating, wearing short shorts and now he has to do all this worrying over again with another little girl!! I think it's hilarious myself :) I just hope the baby girl does NOT take after me mentally or emotionally. Let's face it, I'm a complete mess. I hope she gets my height and James' brain!

I immediately called my Mom afterwards and we cried on the phone together about the news!! I can't wait for her to see her first grandbaby, a little girl.

I'm not sure what else to write, and now my stats below will need to change a little. But here's what's going on this week.....

HOW FAR ALONG:  15 weeks (baby girl is the size of a naval orange) - actually this week I can be more specific. She is almost 10.5 cm long.

SLEEP:  Still having trouble sleeping. I'm tired a lot but I wake up very easily and have a hard time falling back asleep.

FOOD CRAVINGS: I'm going to end up anorexic by the time this baby is born! I can't really eat much, unless I let myself starve long enough. Then I'll pretty much eat anything but I pay for it later :(

WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Convincing James that the baby will be named Emily after the most wonderful grandma in the world! And Ann for a middle name for my beautiful sister and James' beautiful sister :) Oh - and shopping! Duh!

WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Getting bigger and having to pee a lot. Oh and giving birth!


BABY NAMES:  Emily Ann DeLucia :)




Love, Diana
 

Week 14....YAY 2nd Trimester!!

So...to be completely honest, I have nothing positive to say about this week. I've been going through a very difficult time and just don't want to blog about much, if anything right now. Last week was our little Vegas vacation and it sucked (to put it mildly). Note to self: next vacation will be solo, to a beach destination :) My birthday was on Wednesday. The big 3-1! I was so sick and anxious all day that I couldn't even enjoy the dinner James took me to. Bella (my jungle kitty) ate my roses and ruined my dining room table in the process and I received a very passive aggressive birthday card from my Dad. All in all, not the most ideal birthday, but good none the less.

The only thing keeping me going at this point is that next Thursday I'll find out if I'm carrying a little Emily or a little Daniel. James still isn't set on the names, but honestly, I'm not giving him many options lately to voice his opinions :) I did find out that this week my baby is starting to suck it's thumb, and can frown and make other facial expressions. The most disturbing fact is that baby is now peeing....into the amniotic fluid around him. So baby's sitting in his own piss. Nice! Little does the little nugget know that in 21+ years, he/she may be sitting in his/her own piss again. Just for different reasons, like being heavily intoxicated.

I did buy a couple of prenatal yoga DVD's. I tried to find the ones that focused mostly on keeping mommy calm and emotionally sound. I'm very excited to try those out next week when they get in. And my Mom sent me some bra extensions. Since I'm having a hard time finding a bra to fit me comfortably, I can still wear the ones I have now and extend them! That's going to be so much more comfortable!! And is another genius invention....why didn't I think of any of these things years ago?? I could be rich by now! 

Before I sign off, I want to give a big THANK YOU!!! to everyone whose been there for me lately and had to put up with my issues. I promise one day I'll get my shit together :)


HOW FAR ALONG:  14 weeks (baby is the size of a lemon)

SLEEP:  What sleep?? Every little thing wakes me up now and it's taking hours to fall back asleep. The heat and having no a/c definitely isn't helping

FOOD CRAVINGS: Nothing, in fact I'm having a hard time finding anything I want to eat or choke down these days.

WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Finding out the sex of the baby!!

WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Dealing with non-baby issues.

BABY NAMES:  6 more days!! I'm still going with Emily and Daniel :)


Love, Diana :)

Week 13

This week is a good week for many reasons. The first one being that this is my last week in my 1st trimester!!! I will be officially graduating to my 2nd trimester as of Sunday :) I've heard nothing but great things happen during the next 3 months of this experiment so I'm really looking forward to some relief. My cold/congestion is almost gone (for now) which is a nice relief and I'm feeling less and less nauseous everyday.

I'm still an emotional wreck however. I've almost hit my breaking point a few times now. I honestly feel like I need to go away somewhere to like a rehab center or something. Just somewhere where there's no stress, no work, no home, no kids, no phone, nothing! Just me and the growing baby. Obviously this will never happen, but I can dream can't I? :) I know this hard stuff will pass but when you feel as helpless as I do now, it seems like forever before anything will go back to normal. I also seem to have "pregnancy brain" I can't seem to concentrate on anything and I forget stuff all the time. I usually don't forget anything but lately I've been lucky I remember to get up and go to work in the mornings. Or remember to bring the kids to Nana and Papa's every morning! I'm also having weird food issues. I get really really hungry and decide on something to eat, get it in front of me and two bites in I'm done. I seem to be able to snack easier than eating a meal.

There has been some good stuff to go along with the bad though. I did get to have my first drink (or drinks) this past weekend. My friend had a big birthday party and one of her friends who is 7 1/2 months pregnant was there and she let me have one of her non-alcoholic drinks. It was a St. Paulie's Girl beer and it tasted amazing considering there was no booze in it :) I knew I was saving one of my cheat drinks for this night but couldn't decide on wine or beer, so I opted for both! A wonderful person gave me half of their Newcastle beer (one of my favs!!) and then I had half of a glass of red wine. They were both SO yummy but it was hard not to steal a case of beer or a bottle of wine and hide in the corner and get smashed. And having to sip the drinks really put a damper on my normal drinking habits...

I also bought my first baby item ever!!! It was a white onesie and it says "I LOVE MOM" in different colors. It could definitely be worn by a little girl or little boy. Although I bought a newborn size and now I'm worried I'm going to give birth to a 20 lb toddler and it won't fit. Jamesy was 9 1/2 lbs and I was almost 10 lbs. so if that's any indication on the size of my little nugget, we're in trouble!! But it was just so cute and it was only $4 I couldn't resist! I also cruised the baby section at Target and looked at all the baby seats, cribs, changing tables, bottles and diapers. It looks so intimidating and expensive but I'm starting to get excited about getting ready for the baby. Of course, I had to hold back from crying while looking at everything. I do that a lot lately :)

So tomorrow we're off to Vegas for the rest of the week/weekend. One of James' cousins is getting married and the whole DeLucia clan will be there. I will also get to see my Momma who just recently moved to Utah. She is only 2 hours from Vegas so it will be nice to spend some time with her as well. I am SO excited to get some rest and stress free fun. Not sure how much rest I'll get sleeping in the same room with the kids, but I'll be buying ear plugs tonight and hoping for the best :)

Oh and before I forget, I have to tag my Dad (Tom Wigdzinski) in this blog so when he googles himself he can find it. He still doesn't know how to work a computer....he can google himself, but can't figure out how to copy and paste a link. Love you Dad!

HOW FAR ALONG:  13 weeks (baby is the size of a peach!)

SLEEP:  In the great words of Depeche Mode, "I just can't get enough"

FOOD CRAVINGS: Salt, salt and more salt please!

WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Not stressing about work for a few days and road trips :)

WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Right now....pretty much the rest of my life! haha

BABY NAMES:  Just a few more weeks until I found out if I'm carrying a little Emily or a little Daniel!


Love, Diana

12 Weeks and A Best Day Ever!

WOW!! So I already had in my head what this week's post was going to be like. And it was going to be SUPER negative. My new shtick is that I am housing Lucifer or LL as I like to call him/her. (little lucifer). He is turning my insides into the depths of hell and trying to kill me from inside my uterus. Well, I was proven wrong today as I had another ultrasound and found no horns growing out of my baby's head. BUT I did get to see his little hands!!! And FINGERS!!! And he was waving at me the whole time. It was so amazing! The nurse kept getting irritated because she was trying to get a specific picture of the baby and he/she was not cooperating but I cried in delight at being able to stare at my little nugget for a full 45 minutes. Even though I had to go pee at one point and do a bunch of exercises where I had to touch my toes and roll over in circles on the bed like a dog to try and get the baby to change positions. Apparently, the little tyrant is already stubborn! He must get it from his Daddy because everyone knows I'm sweet as pie and always do as I'm told :) Anywho, they made me a CD with pictures of the little guy. He's 6.5 cm long and my due date is still Dec. 19th. Their computer said the 17th, but really does it matter? The baby will be here when he/she is ready to be here. I got to see the baby in 3D and then just sat back and the tech moved and bumped my stomach for 30 minutes to try and get it to move around. It was so amazing...that little love bug is in my stomach! Still so hard to believe that in just a few months someone will be calling me "mommy". I think that's the scariest part. I was joking with James last night that I'm not ready to be a mommy so I'm going to have the child refer to me by my first name :) And by joking, I really mean hysterically crying and begging him not to make me go through with this. But back to my most amazing Dr. appt. yet! When we were all done with the ultrasound the Dr. came in to double check that everything looks good (and it does!) and then told me we would do another ultrasound at 20 weeks. Well yesterday, I saw my OB and asked him about my next visit with him (at 16 weeks) to see if we could tell the gender of the baby at that time. And he said probably not, because I'm not scheduled for another ultrasound until 20 weeks and they don't want to do too many. I was SO bummed because I really want to find out who this person is wreaking havoc on my poor innocent body! But the Dr. I saw today said that at 15 weeks I can do a 3D/4D ultrasound that can tell the baby's gender!!! It's not covered by insurance and costs $75 but I think it's totally worth it. So I scheduled an appt on June 30th to find out the sex of my baby :) YAY!! I can't wait to start shopping for the little bugger!

Also at my OB appt. yesterday I found out that I only gained 2 pds since my last visit vs. the 5 I had gained prior to that. I feel a lot better knowing I didn't gain 50 pds so far. With everything I've been stuffing my face with, 2 pounds is pretty amazing. Below is my baby's fingers and hand waving. Hi everyone!!!

My baby must be a fan of Bring It On....JAZZ HANDS!

And here's one of the 3D pics....

Everything I got to find out today and see was so crazy. It's so hard to believe that there is a little life inside of me relying on me to keep it warm and fed. I mean, I can barely take care of myself! What this little guy was thinking picking me as his "host" is beyond me....But don't get me wrong, he's making me pay for it too. I got sick AGAIN late last week with this stupid head cold. Nose stuffed so bad I could hardly breath, nothing brings me any relief. I was also throwing up all day Friday. So I decided to see my regular Dr. to see if there was ANYTHING I could take besides Tylenol. My Dr. was out on Friday so I saw a different one. She just happens to be 3 months pregnant too! And miserable as well. She said she's housing an alien and looked like she hadn't slept in days. She told me I could take some Zyrtec (didn't help one bit) and gave me a Netti pot. Yeah....I'm sooo congested that when I squirted that water and solution mix up my nostrils, it immediately dripped down my throat instead of out my other nostril. She said it sounds like pregnancy congestion. When I read about it online it says it doesn't go away until after the baby is born. I sincerely hope not, because I don't think I'm strong enough to go through this much longer. Still suffering from headaches daily and a little nausea. I also have a super fun cough and lots of gagging. This baby will pay when he/she gets here....oh yes, it will pay....

So this last weekend was my bestie's 30th birthday! To celebrate, her sister set up a surprise brunch in Berkeley. My pregnancy brain has already kicked in and I showed up to the restaurant, cake and gift in hand, on the wrong day. But that's besides the point...When I got there on the right day, one of Jamie's friends was already there and she has a 6 month old baby boy. The CUTEST little thing you ever did see. Everyone was holding him and he was SO happy and just smiled and laughed with everyone. Until it got time for me to hold him....I figured some special Mommy skills would have kicked in by now, but no go. I had no idea how to hold him and he knew I felt awkward and immediately started crying and fussing. So much for my mommy genes kicking in. But I'm hoping once mine gets here some sort of maternal instincts will be here too!

I'm still extremely emotional which I'm attributing to other factors than just pregnancy hormones. I cry or am on the verge of crying about 80% of the day. And when I'm not crying, I'm bitching. At anyone who will listen really. I feel sorry for anyone who has to come into contact with me, work with me or live with me. I know this will get better with time but patience isn't one of my strong suits and in the meantime I'm not making any friends!

I feel like I've written so much but I also have so much more to say! I'll try to save it for another post. Tomorrow is my echocardiogram and I get a fun heart monitor put on me for the next 3 days, so I'm sure I'll have all kinds of bitching to do about that stuff next week :)

HOW FAR ALONG:  12 weeks (baby is the size of a plum)   

SLEEP:  I've cut back on my sleeping a little bit but I'm still tired all the time

FOOD CRAVINGS: Anything high in carbs. I can't get enough of pastas and breads and sodium filled treats!

WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Vegas next week!!! A little lounge time by the pool :)

WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Waiting another 3 weeks to see my little nugget of love!

BABY NAMES:  June 30th is D Day!!! And I've decided I'm not budging on my baby names. James already got to name two kids, he should have no say in the 3rd one :)

Love, Diana :)