I know it's a little late to start freaking out that I'm going to be a Mom, but I'm freaking out!!! All of a sudden I went from "I have 9 months to get ready for this" to "Holy shit, I'm going to have a kid in a matter of weeks". The good news is I'm not freaking out about giving birth as much as I was before. Mostly because my life has become so stressful and busy that I'm looking forward to having some time off to just focus on one thing. Sure, it might be a screaming, hungry, poopy baby that requires every second of my time but it's only one thing I have to worry about instead of 5 million.
I was really hoping that the 3rd trimester would be like the 2nd and I would still feel good most of the time, yada yada. But I'm not feeling good. At all! And I've been super cranky lately. I just can't seem to handle anything remotely irritating. My job is on my last nerve, customers are on my last nerve, I'm just done. I'm uncomfortable all the time and if I'm not suffering from a massive headache, it's the indigestion that kills me or back pain or chest pain. I'm actually really really happy that I have this blog now so that if I ever get the "itch" again I can just read these entries to remind myself of why I will never be pregnant again. If all these things just affected me than maybe it wouldn't be so bad, but my attitude affects everyone around me and that part I don't like so much.
Happy baby stuff......My mom got us a crib and last weekend I decided to put it together. Well since there's no room in Emily's room to put together a big crib, I opted to do it in our empty living room so I'd have tons of space. Bad idea....I managed to get the crib put together with out too many screw ups (thanks to James!) and we go to put it in the bedroom and realize it doesn't fit through the hallway. After some smart thinking on our parts, we figure out a way to make it fit thru the hallways. Crisis averted! Or not....the crib would not fit in the doorway to the bedroom no matter how we moved it. We realized quickly in the middle of the hallway that the crib would have to be taken apart to put in the room and then be put back together. I almost cried I was so irritated and James was mad because he had told me I should put it together in her room and I didn't listen. So after ruining the walls and the crib, we got it apart and it's now sitting in pieces in Emily's room. She's sleeping on the floor....And my Dad got us a bunch of big items off our registry. The play pen and high chair were delivered yesterday and today the stroller is being delivered. We should get the car seat next week. They're all in boxes and need to be put together and after the debacle with the crib I don't even want to see another allen wrench for as long as I live. But I'm still very excited to see it all set up and ready to go and hopefully we can get through building them without as much drama :)
Emily is still kicking a lot and it's getting weird because even when I'm just sitting down or standing up even, I can see my stomach move from her moving. It's kinda creepy but I'm getting used to it. She already loves her Daddy! As soon as he starts talking to her or touches my stomach she wakes right up and kicks and kicks. Joli got to feel her kick once but as soon as I speak up to get someones attention that she's kicking, she stops. So it makes it difficult for me to share with others. Now that I'm getting so big, I worry about keeping her safe. My big belly bumps into everything and I'm paranoid that I'm going to hurt her on accident. I'm also starting to get that whole Mom worry thing. Everyone always says they just want a healthy baby and I honestly hadn't given that any thought until now. But I'm sure I'll have the rest of my life as a Mommy to worry about her.
And now a short request to toilet makers around the world.....STOP MAKING MIDGET TOILETS!!! Being almost 5'10 and having to pee 26 times a day with a basketball in your stomach is already challenging enough. The toilets in my house are seriously made for little people. I can BARELY get on and off them as it is and I can only imagine this getting worse the bigger I get. I might have to start going in our yard like the neighborhood cats.....
HOW FAR ALONG: 29 weeks (baby is getting big, probably at 3 to 3.5 pds and over 15 inches long)
SLEEP: I wish.....
FOOD CRAVINGS: I'm hungry all the time but nothing sounds appetizing. Plus the 24/7 indigestion makes it hard to pig out.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Again, mostly time off work at this point. I need a serious break and I'm too easily stressed at this point in the pregnancy.
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Putting together any more furniture or baby gear. But I'm crazy and will have them all done by next weekend.
Love, Diana :)
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