Wow, I actually had to go to my last blog post just to remember which week I'm in. I'm starting to get very excited for little Emily to get here already. Pregnancy is finally kinda fun and not as awful as it was the first 3-4 months but it's still exhausting and I've been under a lot of stress lately so a drink or two or nine sounds really good right about now. I have this completely unrealistic vision of laying on a beach with drinks and only adults once this pregnancy is over. But in reality, I'll be covered in puke, poop and pee and exhausted from lack of sleep. It's like I forget that at the end of this 9 months, there will be a baby that will change my entire life for the rest of my life. Dreams of vacationing in Hawaii with James just the two of us will be put on the back burner, probably until we're in our 60's. Sometimes I wonder if this is really the best decision, or if I'll crack under the pressure but I'm starting to see myself as more of a Mommy and less of a partying 20 yr old Diana. I am the most raunchy person I know and have a weird, inappropriate sense of humor but lately I've been feeling a little reserved. Sometimes, actually offended! It's almost like I know I'm going to be someone's Mom so I can't say certain things or laugh at certain jokes. Hopefully this will pass, because as much as my sense of humor isn't for everyone, it's my favorite personality trait and I don't want to lose it!
I'm still feeling really good. Eating a lot, laughing a lot and just generally feeling better. But goodness! This indigestion or heart burn or acid reflux, whatever the hell it's called is going to kill me before I give birth. There is a constant burn in my throat/stomach and just not enough relief. My hips are feeling a little better, which is a nice break but I'm usually up at least once or twice during the night with really bad acid reflux. And then when I fall back asleep from that I wake up 5 minutes later with leg cramps. I wish I could videotape me during a nights sleep just to see how many times I get up out of bed to ease the cramps and then sit up to help the acid reflux and toss and turn to help my hips. It's a miracle James has been sleeping through this. Oh, and the kicking!!! Good LORD! I was thinking since I didn't feel her until a week or so ago that maybe she would be lazy like her Momma and just lay back and chill/sleep all day. Well...girlfriend is moving! I don't know what she's so excited about or why she just can't sit still but she's already got ADD! Which sounds very familiar to James, Joli and Jamesy. The 3 of them couldn't sit still for 5 minutes if someone offered them each a million dollars! But the cool part is at night when I lay on my side, James can feel her kick now. It's so weird that there is a little person inside my belly and it's kicking me! It almost feels like a bird is trapped in my belly and desperately flapping it's wings to get out.
So it's on week 2 of no kiddies and I'm starting to really really miss them. Joli's first day of 2nd grade was yesterday and I'm a little bummed I didn't get to be there to dress her and walk her to class and pack her backpack with her BUT I'm also really happy that her Mom was here to experience that with her. She is so close with her Mom and I know it was important for the both of them so I'm glad they had that day together. Also, my little man Jamesy started Kindergarten. I still remember the very first time I laid eyes on him and he just stared at me like "who is this stranger!" but he warmed up to me so fast and I miss holding him, miss changing his diapers, miss his beautiful baby curls. UH! I could cry just thinking about how much they've grown. But again, I couldn't be happier that they got to share this time with their Mom and I know there will always be next year for me to be there on their first day again :)
This weekend James is going to Washington for a friends wedding so I have the house to myself. Part of me is really excited because I can eat all the chips and salsa I want for 2 whole days with no one to stop me! The other part is a little sad that I'll get lonely. But normally I love to have ME time so I'm going to make the best of it regardless. But I do rely on James to do pretty much everything so it's going to suck to have to get my own glass of water. hahaha jk.
Oh and my Dad keeps telling me to put in here how much he loves and how much I love him. So Dad, I love you too!! And I know you "love your little girl" :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 23 weeks (the baby is the size of....who knows!? She's frickin big!)
SLEEP: I will overdose on Tums this weekend and try to catch up :)
FOOD CRAVINGS: Right now, anything that's edible I want to shove in my mouth! (that doesn't sound right...)
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: CHIPS AND SALSA!!! CHIPS AND SALSA!!! JAMES CAN'T STOP ME!!!
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Waiting til December for my little love muffin!
Love, Diana :)
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Friday, August 19, 2011
Week 22....I almost forgot!
I almost forgot to blog this week! It's been pretty crazy lately. Lots going on with the move and getting the house situated and work has been a lot busier than usual. I feel like I'm in this strange middle ground where I'm over the sickness and initial shock of being pregnant but I'm not quite at that stage where I'm preparing to give birth, have a heavy baby laying on my bladder all day and swollen feet. It almost feels like I know a huge transition is coming but I don't know when or where or how to prevent it. I keep comparing my fear of giving birth to being shot. It's like someone is telling me "hey, in a few months on a day and time you won't be expecting it, someone will shoot you. You'll live but it will be painful and traumatizing" Or like those people in those Final Destination movies. They know death is trying to get them but they don't know when or how. I'm sure having a baby isn't as awful as being shot or chased down by death but it's the closest comparison I can relate to at this time.
The good news is I'm still feeling pretty good. My appetite has kicked in full force and I feel like a pig 24 hours a day. I'm constantly shoveling food in my mouth or thinking about what kind of food I want to shovel in my mouth. I don't have any cravings though, at least not yet. I feel like eating fruit a lot more and of course my usual chips and salsa are always on my mind but nothing that I can actually taste in my mouth or HAVE to have.
This last week has been so nice! The kids' mom is in town for a few weeks so she has them full time which is a nice break. I miss them already and want to hug their little bodies as tight as possible, but I definitely can use the break and I'm enjoying all the time I get to spend with James :) No rush in the mornings to get out the door, no rush to get home and figure out dinner. Aahhhhh reality is going to SUCK next week!
We also got to have a date night with James' parents. Just the four of us. We never get to go out like that so it was nice to be able to have a conversation without kids interrupting us. And today I got to go to lunch with the girls. It was a very nice, much needed break from work. And I'm sorry Jamie, but I have to tell this story! One of Jamie's oldest friends, Mercedes, has an 8 month old boy. He is the cutest little thing in the world and every time I see him I get so excited for little Emily to get here. Anyways, Jamie held her little boy while we ate lunch and he peed on her!!! HE PEED THROUGH HIS DIAPER!!! Is this the kind of stuff I have to look forward too??? It was kinda funny though....I'm sure I wouldn't have thought so if he peed on me but he might as well have. I'll have to get used to that sooner or later! And it's nice to be able to ask her a million questions about being a Mom.
On the mommy-to-be front not too much has changed since last week. My belly button is really hard though and about to start sticking out. That freaks me out a little. My belly is slowly but surely growing and it's hard too. Emily is finally making full on ninja kicks and she's mostly active at night but during the day she can be too. The indigestion is unbearable at this point and I've heard rumors that that could mean the baby is growing more hair. If this is the case, my baby is Chewbacca because I have acid reflux 24/7! I also got a chance last weekend to visit my Grandma at her grave site in Lafayette. I miss her so much, especially lately because I can actually picture here holding my baby and smiling at the both of us. I told her about my little nugget and how I'm naming her after the greatest grandma (and Mother if you ask my Dad) to walk the earth. I promised to be as loving to Emily as she was to my Dad. Just maybe more strict :) I did have a little mini breakdown the other night though. I was watching Ice loves Coco (give me a break, there was nothing else on TV!) and Coco's sister went into labor and they showed her and the birthing stuff. I freaked. My jaw hit the floor and I immediately stomped out to James in the living room, did my cry face and proceeded to refuse to give birth. I told him if the dr's said push, I would hold her in. I will no way do this! It looks so scary and chaotic and I just don't see the "natural, beautiful" thing in popping a baby out of your hoohoo! It's just not right....there has to be another way. My goal is to come up with an alternative way to get a baby out of my belly besides c-section and the age old typical way before Emily gets here. I better hurry up!
HOW FAR ALONG: 22 weeks (baby is the size of a spaghetti squash?)
SLEEP: What sleep? My hips hurt SO bad I'm too uncomfortable to sleep for more than 20 minutes at a time
FOOD CRAVINGS: Nothing yet. Maybe when I get bigger I'll start having some cravings.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Holding her in my arms for the first time.
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Trying to find an alternative to giving birth...that may be tricky!
Love, Diana :)
The good news is I'm still feeling pretty good. My appetite has kicked in full force and I feel like a pig 24 hours a day. I'm constantly shoveling food in my mouth or thinking about what kind of food I want to shovel in my mouth. I don't have any cravings though, at least not yet. I feel like eating fruit a lot more and of course my usual chips and salsa are always on my mind but nothing that I can actually taste in my mouth or HAVE to have.
This last week has been so nice! The kids' mom is in town for a few weeks so she has them full time which is a nice break. I miss them already and want to hug their little bodies as tight as possible, but I definitely can use the break and I'm enjoying all the time I get to spend with James :) No rush in the mornings to get out the door, no rush to get home and figure out dinner. Aahhhhh reality is going to SUCK next week!
We also got to have a date night with James' parents. Just the four of us. We never get to go out like that so it was nice to be able to have a conversation without kids interrupting us. And today I got to go to lunch with the girls. It was a very nice, much needed break from work. And I'm sorry Jamie, but I have to tell this story! One of Jamie's oldest friends, Mercedes, has an 8 month old boy. He is the cutest little thing in the world and every time I see him I get so excited for little Emily to get here. Anyways, Jamie held her little boy while we ate lunch and he peed on her!!! HE PEED THROUGH HIS DIAPER!!! Is this the kind of stuff I have to look forward too??? It was kinda funny though....I'm sure I wouldn't have thought so if he peed on me but he might as well have. I'll have to get used to that sooner or later! And it's nice to be able to ask her a million questions about being a Mom.
On the mommy-to-be front not too much has changed since last week. My belly button is really hard though and about to start sticking out. That freaks me out a little. My belly is slowly but surely growing and it's hard too. Emily is finally making full on ninja kicks and she's mostly active at night but during the day she can be too. The indigestion is unbearable at this point and I've heard rumors that that could mean the baby is growing more hair. If this is the case, my baby is Chewbacca because I have acid reflux 24/7! I also got a chance last weekend to visit my Grandma at her grave site in Lafayette. I miss her so much, especially lately because I can actually picture here holding my baby and smiling at the both of us. I told her about my little nugget and how I'm naming her after the greatest grandma (and Mother if you ask my Dad) to walk the earth. I promised to be as loving to Emily as she was to my Dad. Just maybe more strict :) I did have a little mini breakdown the other night though. I was watching Ice loves Coco (give me a break, there was nothing else on TV!) and Coco's sister went into labor and they showed her and the birthing stuff. I freaked. My jaw hit the floor and I immediately stomped out to James in the living room, did my cry face and proceeded to refuse to give birth. I told him if the dr's said push, I would hold her in. I will no way do this! It looks so scary and chaotic and I just don't see the "natural, beautiful" thing in popping a baby out of your hoohoo! It's just not right....there has to be another way. My goal is to come up with an alternative way to get a baby out of my belly besides c-section and the age old typical way before Emily gets here. I better hurry up!
HOW FAR ALONG: 22 weeks (baby is the size of a spaghetti squash?)
SLEEP: What sleep? My hips hurt SO bad I'm too uncomfortable to sleep for more than 20 minutes at a time
FOOD CRAVINGS: Nothing yet. Maybe when I get bigger I'll start having some cravings.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Holding her in my arms for the first time.
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Trying to find an alternative to giving birth...that may be tricky!
Love, Diana :)
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Week 21
I wish I had some exciting news to report this week but it's been pretty low key. The baby is now 10 1/2 inches long (or around that) and weighs over 12 oz. which I knew from my ultrasound last week. She's been moving around a lot more lately too. My stomach flutters all morning/early afternoon and then again at night time when I'm resting. It's such a weird feeling and I wish I could feel it from the outside so others could feel too but not yet! I'm starting to feel very...what's the word?...motherly! I'm getting more and more concerned about taking care of little Emily and that's a totally knew and strange feeling for me. But it's also kinda nice :)
We're pretty much fully moved into to our new home. It's so amazing to have a house with lots of space and room for everyone to do their own thing without sitting on top of each other. And it's really exciting to see Emily's room that I'll get to furnish and decorate in the next few months. Joli drew a giant picture for her to hang on the wall. Honestly, it looks like one of those satanic star-in-circle pictures but I would never dream of telling her that so Emily will be sporting 666 paraphernalia on her wall for a while :) The one thing I'm not looking too forward to is baby proofing the house. Luckily for the first few weeks anyways she won't be doing much moving around on her own so I'll have a while to make the house safe but there's just so much I haven't thought about yet and when I even try to think about making a check list or marking something off that check list, I get so overwhelmed. And I think I over did it a little bit during packing and moving because my stomach feels so sore like I pulled a muscle but hopefully that will go away in a few days.
This is probably the best I've felt since I found out I was expecting and it's nice to have my appetite back and feel so happy for a change. The headaches have been less painful and seem to not last as long as usual. Not sure if this is permanent or not, but I'm eating it up while I can! Lots of indigestion though. Every night I'm up and down with burning sensations in my throat and stomach. Also my hips and back are hurting a lot so I'm not sleeping much because I can't seem to get comfortable. I bought a pregnancy pillow and it's HUGE! Half the size of the bed, but it hurts my neck and makes me feel suffocated so maybe when I'm bigger I'll be able to enjoy it more. My belly seems to have doubled in the size. I know it hasn't literally but all of a sudden when I look down, all I see is a huge gut! There's no denying I'm preggers now!
It was very cute, last night when the baby was fluttering around I told James and he came over and started talking to her and she moved around even more. I think she's getting used to his voice and that makes me so happy. The kids love to kiss my belly for the baby and hug her too. Sometimes I forget how lucky I am to have such a wonderful little family that I love so much and that love me just as much. I'm very excited for the kiddies because their Mom just got back from a tour in Afghanistan and will be here in about a week to spend some time with them. They are SO excited to see their Mommy!!! And I'm just as excited to have some me and Daddy time too :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 21 Weeks (baby is about 10 1/2 inches long!)
SLEEP: I miss sleep so much :( It was my favorite pastime!
FOOD CRAVINGS: Mostly just chips and salsa. I could eat that for breakfast, lunch and dinner!
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Alone time with James and finishing the house
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: I hear the 3rd trimester can be rough especially close to the due date. I'm a little nervous about how I'll feel then since I'm already so uncomfortable.
Love, Diana :)
We're pretty much fully moved into to our new home. It's so amazing to have a house with lots of space and room for everyone to do their own thing without sitting on top of each other. And it's really exciting to see Emily's room that I'll get to furnish and decorate in the next few months. Joli drew a giant picture for her to hang on the wall. Honestly, it looks like one of those satanic star-in-circle pictures but I would never dream of telling her that so Emily will be sporting 666 paraphernalia on her wall for a while :) The one thing I'm not looking too forward to is baby proofing the house. Luckily for the first few weeks anyways she won't be doing much moving around on her own so I'll have a while to make the house safe but there's just so much I haven't thought about yet and when I even try to think about making a check list or marking something off that check list, I get so overwhelmed. And I think I over did it a little bit during packing and moving because my stomach feels so sore like I pulled a muscle but hopefully that will go away in a few days.
This is probably the best I've felt since I found out I was expecting and it's nice to have my appetite back and feel so happy for a change. The headaches have been less painful and seem to not last as long as usual. Not sure if this is permanent or not, but I'm eating it up while I can! Lots of indigestion though. Every night I'm up and down with burning sensations in my throat and stomach. Also my hips and back are hurting a lot so I'm not sleeping much because I can't seem to get comfortable. I bought a pregnancy pillow and it's HUGE! Half the size of the bed, but it hurts my neck and makes me feel suffocated so maybe when I'm bigger I'll be able to enjoy it more. My belly seems to have doubled in the size. I know it hasn't literally but all of a sudden when I look down, all I see is a huge gut! There's no denying I'm preggers now!
It was very cute, last night when the baby was fluttering around I told James and he came over and started talking to her and she moved around even more. I think she's getting used to his voice and that makes me so happy. The kids love to kiss my belly for the baby and hug her too. Sometimes I forget how lucky I am to have such a wonderful little family that I love so much and that love me just as much. I'm very excited for the kiddies because their Mom just got back from a tour in Afghanistan and will be here in about a week to spend some time with them. They are SO excited to see their Mommy!!! And I'm just as excited to have some me and Daddy time too :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 21 Weeks (baby is about 10 1/2 inches long!)
SLEEP: I miss sleep so much :( It was my favorite pastime!
FOOD CRAVINGS: Mostly just chips and salsa. I could eat that for breakfast, lunch and dinner!
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Alone time with James and finishing the house
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: I hear the 3rd trimester can be rough especially close to the due date. I'm a little nervous about how I'll feel then since I'm already so uncomfortable.
Love, Diana :)
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
20 Weeks.....HALF WAY THERE!!
YAY! I've made it halfway through this pregnancy and am feeling SO SO much better!! Now that the nausea has subsided and I have my appetite back, I'm finding a few new symptoms I wasn't expecting. Aside from the bad headaches I'm still suffering from a few times a week and the new nose bleed sessions, I noticed I broke out in a red rash-type thing over the weekend. It passed after several minutes but now I have little red spots all over. Apparently it's normal and to be honest, at this point, it wouldn't surprise me if I started growing fins or a second head.
I'm feeling very excited about our little girl arriving. I can't wait to just have her here and have my body back to myself and start focusing on her little body growing. Anyone who knows me, can vouch that I can be a little neurotic. And now that the sickness is over with, the neuroses has kicked in full force. I'm constantly finding myself with questions that need immediate answers. Like, how will I know what type of bottles to use? Or formula in case this whole breastfeeding thing doesn't work out? How long do you swaddle a baby for?? And since I'm a little crazy, I've already looked into and started booking classes. Next week, James and I will visit the hospital I plan to give birth in (San Ramon Valley Regional) and do a tour to see where I will be admitted at, what the rooms look like and the nursery, etc. Apparently, most parents don't do this until later in the pregnancy but I must know NOW what I'm in for and where to go and what to do! I'm also looking at scheduling breastfeeding classes as soon as next month but maybe I'll hold off so I don't come off as too unstable a person....
This last weekend was busy with James and I packing up the condo getting ready for our big move into our new house this coming weekend. I also get neurotic about moving so of course we had to have EVERYTHING packed by Sunday night even though we're not moving until Saturday morning. Luckily, James is a little crazy when it comes to moving too so he's on the same page as me :) I saw my OB yesterday who said not to lift anything heavy so now we're down a person to help move. No biggie (at least for me!) but it does add to the stress a little bit. I'm sure everything will work out though :)
I had a great weekend. My mom came to visit from Utah. I took her to see the new place last Thursday night. Well....we don't have the keys yet so I just took her around the backyard and we peeked into all the windows. Then Saturday she came over and brought me all my favorite snack foods. Chips and salsa, cheese and crackers, fruit and my favorite!!! A Katrina Roselle cake. YUMMY! Then she took the kids for a few hours while James and I packed up the place. They love hanging out with Grandma Sue!! You never know where they'll end up or what they'll come home with. Luckily this time it was just candy and some clams? that the kids found in yucky duck pond water. And Sunday night she came over and we took her to Casa Orozco.
Monday was my favorite day again!! My Mom got to come with me for my 20 week ultrasound and my OB check up. The 20 week ultrasound was kinda boring because apparently it's my last ultrasound so they had to check all her body parts and functions. They took pictures of her heart, her kidneys, her brain, her legs, arms, fingers and toes. Of course, she was very uncooperative as usual, so I had to get up, use the restroom, do some stretches and start over. My poor Mom was mostly freaked out by the tech pushing on my belly to try and get the baby to move. I'm used to it and was convinced it doesn't hurt the baby but my Mom was NOT liking that at all!! I thought at one point she was going to attack the technician and threaten to shake him like he was shaking my belly. Then she got to go to my regular OB check up with me and see my neurotic behaivor first hand as I questioned my dr. up a storm! Since I'm due around Christmas time, I need to know his holiday schedule! Is he planning on being on call for me? Apparently not... Will he be working during the holidays in case she comes then? Nope. So unless I'm really late or early, I might be delivering with a different OB. I have a feeling that when I'm in labor I will care less if my OB or a birthday clown will be delivering my child. I asked him how accurate due dates are and he said "not really" That's not very reassuring for a crazy planner like me. If I wasn't so against getting a c-section, I would be picking a day to give birth. Hopefully my little love muffin will want to be on time or early just like her Momma :)
Here's some pics of what she looks like now.....
My Mom also bought a few baby items which are TOO CUTE!!
HOW FAR ALONG: 20 Weeks (baby weighs 12oz and is the size of a banana)
SLEEP: Not sleeping very well. Starting to get uncomfortable and move around a lot.
FOOD CRAVINGS: Nothing yet. Maybe I won't have cravings??
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Setting up the baby room
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Breasfeeding. I almost feel like giving birth will pale in comparison to having my nipples ruined.
Love, Diana :)
I'm feeling very excited about our little girl arriving. I can't wait to just have her here and have my body back to myself and start focusing on her little body growing. Anyone who knows me, can vouch that I can be a little neurotic. And now that the sickness is over with, the neuroses has kicked in full force. I'm constantly finding myself with questions that need immediate answers. Like, how will I know what type of bottles to use? Or formula in case this whole breastfeeding thing doesn't work out? How long do you swaddle a baby for?? And since I'm a little crazy, I've already looked into and started booking classes. Next week, James and I will visit the hospital I plan to give birth in (San Ramon Valley Regional) and do a tour to see where I will be admitted at, what the rooms look like and the nursery, etc. Apparently, most parents don't do this until later in the pregnancy but I must know NOW what I'm in for and where to go and what to do! I'm also looking at scheduling breastfeeding classes as soon as next month but maybe I'll hold off so I don't come off as too unstable a person....
This last weekend was busy with James and I packing up the condo getting ready for our big move into our new house this coming weekend. I also get neurotic about moving so of course we had to have EVERYTHING packed by Sunday night even though we're not moving until Saturday morning. Luckily, James is a little crazy when it comes to moving too so he's on the same page as me :) I saw my OB yesterday who said not to lift anything heavy so now we're down a person to help move. No biggie (at least for me!) but it does add to the stress a little bit. I'm sure everything will work out though :)
I had a great weekend. My mom came to visit from Utah. I took her to see the new place last Thursday night. Well....we don't have the keys yet so I just took her around the backyard and we peeked into all the windows. Then Saturday she came over and brought me all my favorite snack foods. Chips and salsa, cheese and crackers, fruit and my favorite!!! A Katrina Roselle cake. YUMMY! Then she took the kids for a few hours while James and I packed up the place. They love hanging out with Grandma Sue!! You never know where they'll end up or what they'll come home with. Luckily this time it was just candy and some clams? that the kids found in yucky duck pond water. And Sunday night she came over and we took her to Casa Orozco.
Monday was my favorite day again!! My Mom got to come with me for my 20 week ultrasound and my OB check up. The 20 week ultrasound was kinda boring because apparently it's my last ultrasound so they had to check all her body parts and functions. They took pictures of her heart, her kidneys, her brain, her legs, arms, fingers and toes. Of course, she was very uncooperative as usual, so I had to get up, use the restroom, do some stretches and start over. My poor Mom was mostly freaked out by the tech pushing on my belly to try and get the baby to move. I'm used to it and was convinced it doesn't hurt the baby but my Mom was NOT liking that at all!! I thought at one point she was going to attack the technician and threaten to shake him like he was shaking my belly. Then she got to go to my regular OB check up with me and see my neurotic behaivor first hand as I questioned my dr. up a storm! Since I'm due around Christmas time, I need to know his holiday schedule! Is he planning on being on call for me? Apparently not... Will he be working during the holidays in case she comes then? Nope. So unless I'm really late or early, I might be delivering with a different OB. I have a feeling that when I'm in labor I will care less if my OB or a birthday clown will be delivering my child. I asked him how accurate due dates are and he said "not really" That's not very reassuring for a crazy planner like me. If I wasn't so against getting a c-section, I would be picking a day to give birth. Hopefully my little love muffin will want to be on time or early just like her Momma :)
Here's some pics of what she looks like now.....
My Mom also bought a few baby items which are TOO CUTE!!
HOW FAR ALONG: 20 Weeks (baby weighs 12oz and is the size of a banana)
SLEEP: Not sleeping very well. Starting to get uncomfortable and move around a lot.
FOOD CRAVINGS: Nothing yet. Maybe I won't have cravings??
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Setting up the baby room
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Breasfeeding. I almost feel like giving birth will pale in comparison to having my nipples ruined.
Love, Diana :)
Monday, July 25, 2011
Week 18 and 19.....Better late than never!
Oopsy! I got so busy last week I forgot to blog! So I'll basically just do a recap of last week and this week together :)
So much has been going on....I'm feeling better and better every day as far as stomach issues go. Of course, now new symptoms have started kicking in. I'm battling my 4th bloody nose as I type this, since last week. I called my Dr. to confirm, but I already knew this was considered "normal" and to be expected during pregnancy. However, I have not had a bloody nose since I was maybe 7? years old and had forgotten how gross they are. The first one struck me on an already downhill day. I had found a house on Craigslist in San Ramon in our price range and right next to the kids' school and called on it immediately. Me, James and the kiddies went to go check it out that night. We knew immediately we HAD to have this house but were feeling like it was impossible. James had convinced me there is no way we'd qualify and I started picturing the 5 of us living in 2 bedroom apartments for the rest of our lives. Then when we got home, I accidentally hit James' car with my car while parallel parking on the street. I had been suffering from a HORRIBLE headache all day and this was just the icing on the cake. At least I thought.....while doing the dishes Jamesy came up and asked me why there was red stuff on my face. I couldn't figure out what he was trying to say until I wiped my nose and saw a lot of blood. After laying down on the couch with my head back for a few minutes, it went away but not before making a mess. Jamesy suffers from lots of bloody noses so he could sympathize with me and told me what to do to make it stop. He is the most adorable 5 yr old EVER!
Anywho, after that little mishap I was off on a plane 2 days later for Portland, OR. to visit my sister. I was REALLY freaked out about flying since I'm not a good flyer and being pregnant, I just wasn't sure what to expect but the ride went off without a hitch! Well....except for the stinky man next to me who got up to vomit once the plane landed. But I digress...I rented a car and drove to visit a good friend April in Salem, Or. On my way I saw a Coach outlet store calling my name and decided to stop in and just check out the deals. While admiring a beautiful purse on clearance my phone rang and it was the house we had seen earlier that week! They decided to rent to us! We got the house!!!! I can't tell you how excited I was. I dropped the purse, ran outside and started making phone calls. I called James who I'm pretty sure didn't believe me at first. After that I called the fam. Mom, Dad, and MIL Tracy to let them all know the good news!!! I still can't believe we're going to be in a home. Everyone will have their own room, I can actually decorate the baby's room! We have a backyard for the kids to play in, a garage for our cars! It's just so amazing and exciting. I haven't had the pleasure of living in an actual house since I was maybe 18 yrs old so it's been a while and very very missed.
My trip to Oregon was wonderful to say the least! I loved my visit with April. She has 3 kids so she gave me some good advice and helped calm my worries about giving birth. I got to spend lots of quality time with my sister. We laughed and laughed, she took great care of me the whole time and it was so relaxing. The weather was perfect and I could not have asked for a better trip! We also got to buy lots of stuff for the baby. Auntie Julio got a really cute headband and hat and then a onesie that says "with luck I'll be a duck". I got her a little tutu and matching onesie for a potential photo shoot with Marcie (wink wink).
I can't believe one of the pictures is actually right side up! It's a miracle!! Anyways, these are the shots I took on my phone. One the day I left, I found two cute pillows that hold missing teeth and bought one for each of the kiddies. Joli had just lost a tooth that day so she could use her new pillow to hold it in :) I also bought them name placards that hang from their bedroom doors. They are so excited to have their own rooms!
So some baby stats....I either had a dream last night that I felt the baby moving or it really happened. I can't figure it out yet nor can I remember it for the life of me but the baby was definitely moving and I definitely felt it, just not sure if it was reality or not. Baby Em is also sucking my brain right out of my dome! I can't remember anything, am having problems focusing at work and have been making silly mistakes all day every day lately. I'm feeling pretty useless right about now. Like I'm a hazard to society and should be kept up at home until it passes. The headaches are still frequent and PAINFUL! Lots of cramping and pain from my stomach stretching but I'm starting to get too excited to even care. I can't wait to hold her one day and feed her and cloth her and play with her. I hope she laughs a lot like her Mommy and is a happy carefree baby!
HOW FAR ALONG: 19 weeks (baby is 6 inches long)
SLEEP: I was a champ on my vacation and didn't nap once! But I'm paying for it now. haha very very sleepy....
FOOD CRAVINGS: My appetite is coming back, but I can really only eat small portions. Snack food I'm great at, but put a meal in front of me and I'll stare and pick at it.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Setting up baby's room, enjoying a real home with my beautiful family and continuing to feel better and better!
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: uh, still not too sure about this whole giving birth thing.
Love, Diana :)
So much has been going on....I'm feeling better and better every day as far as stomach issues go. Of course, now new symptoms have started kicking in. I'm battling my 4th bloody nose as I type this, since last week. I called my Dr. to confirm, but I already knew this was considered "normal" and to be expected during pregnancy. However, I have not had a bloody nose since I was maybe 7? years old and had forgotten how gross they are. The first one struck me on an already downhill day. I had found a house on Craigslist in San Ramon in our price range and right next to the kids' school and called on it immediately. Me, James and the kiddies went to go check it out that night. We knew immediately we HAD to have this house but were feeling like it was impossible. James had convinced me there is no way we'd qualify and I started picturing the 5 of us living in 2 bedroom apartments for the rest of our lives. Then when we got home, I accidentally hit James' car with my car while parallel parking on the street. I had been suffering from a HORRIBLE headache all day and this was just the icing on the cake. At least I thought.....while doing the dishes Jamesy came up and asked me why there was red stuff on my face. I couldn't figure out what he was trying to say until I wiped my nose and saw a lot of blood. After laying down on the couch with my head back for a few minutes, it went away but not before making a mess. Jamesy suffers from lots of bloody noses so he could sympathize with me and told me what to do to make it stop. He is the most adorable 5 yr old EVER!
Anywho, after that little mishap I was off on a plane 2 days later for Portland, OR. to visit my sister. I was REALLY freaked out about flying since I'm not a good flyer and being pregnant, I just wasn't sure what to expect but the ride went off without a hitch! Well....except for the stinky man next to me who got up to vomit once the plane landed. But I digress...I rented a car and drove to visit a good friend April in Salem, Or. On my way I saw a Coach outlet store calling my name and decided to stop in and just check out the deals. While admiring a beautiful purse on clearance my phone rang and it was the house we had seen earlier that week! They decided to rent to us! We got the house!!!! I can't tell you how excited I was. I dropped the purse, ran outside and started making phone calls. I called James who I'm pretty sure didn't believe me at first. After that I called the fam. Mom, Dad, and MIL Tracy to let them all know the good news!!! I still can't believe we're going to be in a home. Everyone will have their own room, I can actually decorate the baby's room! We have a backyard for the kids to play in, a garage for our cars! It's just so amazing and exciting. I haven't had the pleasure of living in an actual house since I was maybe 18 yrs old so it's been a while and very very missed.
My trip to Oregon was wonderful to say the least! I loved my visit with April. She has 3 kids so she gave me some good advice and helped calm my worries about giving birth. I got to spend lots of quality time with my sister. We laughed and laughed, she took great care of me the whole time and it was so relaxing. The weather was perfect and I could not have asked for a better trip! We also got to buy lots of stuff for the baby. Auntie Julio got a really cute headband and hat and then a onesie that says "with luck I'll be a duck". I got her a little tutu and matching onesie for a potential photo shoot with Marcie (wink wink).
I can't believe one of the pictures is actually right side up! It's a miracle!! Anyways, these are the shots I took on my phone. One the day I left, I found two cute pillows that hold missing teeth and bought one for each of the kiddies. Joli had just lost a tooth that day so she could use her new pillow to hold it in :) I also bought them name placards that hang from their bedroom doors. They are so excited to have their own rooms!
So some baby stats....I either had a dream last night that I felt the baby moving or it really happened. I can't figure it out yet nor can I remember it for the life of me but the baby was definitely moving and I definitely felt it, just not sure if it was reality or not. Baby Em is also sucking my brain right out of my dome! I can't remember anything, am having problems focusing at work and have been making silly mistakes all day every day lately. I'm feeling pretty useless right about now. Like I'm a hazard to society and should be kept up at home until it passes. The headaches are still frequent and PAINFUL! Lots of cramping and pain from my stomach stretching but I'm starting to get too excited to even care. I can't wait to hold her one day and feed her and cloth her and play with her. I hope she laughs a lot like her Mommy and is a happy carefree baby!
HOW FAR ALONG: 19 weeks (baby is 6 inches long)
SLEEP: I was a champ on my vacation and didn't nap once! But I'm paying for it now. haha very very sleepy....
FOOD CRAVINGS: My appetite is coming back, but I can really only eat small portions. Snack food I'm great at, but put a meal in front of me and I'll stare and pick at it.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Setting up baby's room, enjoying a real home with my beautiful family and continuing to feel better and better!
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: uh, still not too sure about this whole giving birth thing.
Love, Diana :)
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Week 17........Pictures!!
So I think it's finally starting to happen. I'm actually feeling (dare I say it!) EXCITED!!! Still nervous too, don't get me wrong, this is the most traumatizing experience I've ever encountered, but at least there's some excitement and happiness coming from all the worry and nerves.
Last Sunday, James and I and the kids went to Babies 'R Us to look for a baby book. I've been trying to find a specific one that has folders and stuff for cd's and pregnancy tests but Target and Hallmark didn't have any such thing. It's all the typical baby books documenting their first solid food and first solid poop! I'm not ready for that yet. BUT, we found a pregnancy book instead and it was perfect!! So besides my blog, I have a book (with folders) to keep my pregnancy tests in, the pictures, the cd's and DVD's and the cards I've gotten congratulating me on being a mommy-to-be! It's very in depth and has tons of space for any extra information I need to store, PLUS a calendar so I can mark all my dr. appts. and ultrasound appts. along with any other milestones I want to remember the dates of. I still can't figure out how to get the pictures to flip right side up...
That part was fun, but since we were already at Babies 'R Us, James said we could walk around and just look at all the things we would need for the baby. Talk about overwhelming!!! We passed bedroom sets with cribs, dressers and changing tables. Then there was the playpen section. I mean, I didn't even THINK about the fact that we'd need a playpen!!! And then the car seats...those things are SO expensive!!! And highchairs! How could I have forgotten to consider where the baby would eat?? Obviously she's not going to sit on the chairs like her older siblings! Then we passed the bassinets. Seriously? We have to have a mobile crib for our room plus a crib for her room?? Where is she going to be sleeping all this time?? And then a rocking chair for Mom and baby. And then bath tubs and bouncers and bedding. It was all so insane!! Not to mention, PRICEY! And that's not even considering clothes, bottles, diapers, toys, food. We better start playing the lottery or we are screwed. I can picture it now....our baby eating off the floor, wearing towels as diapers and naked. I did fall in love with this bedding set though, so I sent the link for it to my sister and Mom and told them to start saving! I know, priorities right? But they suggested that we start our registry sooner rather than later. Good idea! So I spent a good time on Monday picking out two options for every thing we need before baby gets here so that James could have a say too. Of course, he only gets a say of the two options I give him, but that's okay. He tends to be the more materialistic of the two of us and if he could pick, we'd have $300 playpens. I tend to be a little on the cheap side when it comes to these things. Plus, the baby is just going to puke, poop and spill on the stuff anyways. Why spend so much?
For fun, I decided to check out Juicy Couture's diaper bags. Me and my Mom saw a woman with one and with a Juicy stroller in Las Vegas and we've been trying to convince my sister that she should buy it for me :) Anywho, no go on the diaper bags, I mean 300 bucks for a stupid bag that's going to eventually hold dirty diapers and spilled milk?? No thank you! BUT I did find this absolutely adorable outfit that I've now named the "take baby home from the hospital outfit" I immediatley e-mailed it to James but he doesn't seem too convinced yet that it's a must have. You can see it by clicking below and then convince James that we should buy it :)
Juicy Fit
Nothing else too exciting has been going on this last week. I've been suffering from HORRIBLE headaches and lots of stomach issues, but that's nothing new. The kids are getting really excited! Last week when I told Jamesy and Joli that the baby can hear us now Jamesy yanked my mouth open and yelled down "HELLO" to the baby. I tried to explain that she can hear him through my belly just fine, but he's intent on shouting through my throat instead :) And I also had to explain that she can't understand WHAT we're saying, just hear our voices. Everytime me or Daddy swear (which is a lot!) he tells us to stop because the baby can hear us. "No bad words!" he says.
Supposedly the baby's bones are starting to harden more and she will start doubling in size these next few weeks. And the umbilical cord is hardening too (gross!) and I can see my belly button getting squished more and more. It's quickly becoming an outie! I don't like that idea either. I mostly just keep waiting to feel her move. I keep playing my favorite bands so if she decides to move while my songs are playing, I'll know she has my taste in music :) It's starting to hurt my lower abs if I move too quickly to get up or when I get out of my car. And I'm cramping a lot which I'm sure is from my belly growing. I finally got some chewable prenatal vitamins!! So now I have no excuse to skip them...even though I still think they are unnecessary.....
I also took some pictures of my belly last night for my friend Tammy. First James took a few, but he's not a very good photographer and I'm not feeling very camera ready so I tried to take some myself in the mirror. I'm sure they'll all show sideways (stupid computer!) but I'll post them anyways so you can see where I'm at. Even though there are plenty of women who don't show yet, I already look like I'm in my 6th month!
I take my 2nd trimester blood screening tests today and don't have another follow up or ultrasound appt. until August 1st but I'm already getting antsy to see my little girl again! Although....I was a lot more excited before The Bump (pregnancy website) decided it was necessary to send me e-mails letting me know what to expect after childbirth. If you dare (and I'm so mad I did!) to see what they're saying, have a look below! Also they sent me another link just yesterday to let me know all the different poops that are normal for baby. Luckily, I will not fall for that trick twice and am in no way going to see what constitutes as safe poop or problem poop. Basically, after reading this, I've decided I want a c-section. A planned, month in advance, c-section.
After birth nastiness
So here's what's going on with baby!
HOW FAR ALONG: 17 weeks (baby weighs the same as an onion)
SLEEP: So tired! After a trip to the store on Sunday, I had to nap for 3 hours.
FOOD CRAVINGS: I'm starting to want food again, mostly because I'm hungry just sick right after I eat anything. But fruit always sounds appealing. I can't get enough strawberries. But seem to only be able to eat chips and salsa.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Getting a plan under way so I know what steps I need to take to get there.
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Working through the rest of this pregnancy, giving birth, trying to handle 3 children and figuring out a living situation. No wonder I stress so much!!
Love, Diana :)
Last Sunday, James and I and the kids went to Babies 'R Us to look for a baby book. I've been trying to find a specific one that has folders and stuff for cd's and pregnancy tests but Target and Hallmark didn't have any such thing. It's all the typical baby books documenting their first solid food and first solid poop! I'm not ready for that yet. BUT, we found a pregnancy book instead and it was perfect!! So besides my blog, I have a book (with folders) to keep my pregnancy tests in, the pictures, the cd's and DVD's and the cards I've gotten congratulating me on being a mommy-to-be! It's very in depth and has tons of space for any extra information I need to store, PLUS a calendar so I can mark all my dr. appts. and ultrasound appts. along with any other milestones I want to remember the dates of. I still can't figure out how to get the pictures to flip right side up...
That part was fun, but since we were already at Babies 'R Us, James said we could walk around and just look at all the things we would need for the baby. Talk about overwhelming!!! We passed bedroom sets with cribs, dressers and changing tables. Then there was the playpen section. I mean, I didn't even THINK about the fact that we'd need a playpen!!! And then the car seats...those things are SO expensive!!! And highchairs! How could I have forgotten to consider where the baby would eat?? Obviously she's not going to sit on the chairs like her older siblings! Then we passed the bassinets. Seriously? We have to have a mobile crib for our room plus a crib for her room?? Where is she going to be sleeping all this time?? And then a rocking chair for Mom and baby. And then bath tubs and bouncers and bedding. It was all so insane!! Not to mention, PRICEY! And that's not even considering clothes, bottles, diapers, toys, food. We better start playing the lottery or we are screwed. I can picture it now....our baby eating off the floor, wearing towels as diapers and naked. I did fall in love with this bedding set though, so I sent the link for it to my sister and Mom and told them to start saving! I know, priorities right? But they suggested that we start our registry sooner rather than later. Good idea! So I spent a good time on Monday picking out two options for every thing we need before baby gets here so that James could have a say too. Of course, he only gets a say of the two options I give him, but that's okay. He tends to be the more materialistic of the two of us and if he could pick, we'd have $300 playpens. I tend to be a little on the cheap side when it comes to these things. Plus, the baby is just going to puke, poop and spill on the stuff anyways. Why spend so much?
For fun, I decided to check out Juicy Couture's diaper bags. Me and my Mom saw a woman with one and with a Juicy stroller in Las Vegas and we've been trying to convince my sister that she should buy it for me :) Anywho, no go on the diaper bags, I mean 300 bucks for a stupid bag that's going to eventually hold dirty diapers and spilled milk?? No thank you! BUT I did find this absolutely adorable outfit that I've now named the "take baby home from the hospital outfit" I immediatley e-mailed it to James but he doesn't seem too convinced yet that it's a must have. You can see it by clicking below and then convince James that we should buy it :)
Juicy Fit
Nothing else too exciting has been going on this last week. I've been suffering from HORRIBLE headaches and lots of stomach issues, but that's nothing new. The kids are getting really excited! Last week when I told Jamesy and Joli that the baby can hear us now Jamesy yanked my mouth open and yelled down "HELLO" to the baby. I tried to explain that she can hear him through my belly just fine, but he's intent on shouting through my throat instead :) And I also had to explain that she can't understand WHAT we're saying, just hear our voices. Everytime me or Daddy swear (which is a lot!) he tells us to stop because the baby can hear us. "No bad words!" he says.
Supposedly the baby's bones are starting to harden more and she will start doubling in size these next few weeks. And the umbilical cord is hardening too (gross!) and I can see my belly button getting squished more and more. It's quickly becoming an outie! I don't like that idea either. I mostly just keep waiting to feel her move. I keep playing my favorite bands so if she decides to move while my songs are playing, I'll know she has my taste in music :) It's starting to hurt my lower abs if I move too quickly to get up or when I get out of my car. And I'm cramping a lot which I'm sure is from my belly growing. I finally got some chewable prenatal vitamins!! So now I have no excuse to skip them...even though I still think they are unnecessary.....
I also took some pictures of my belly last night for my friend Tammy. First James took a few, but he's not a very good photographer and I'm not feeling very camera ready so I tried to take some myself in the mirror. I'm sure they'll all show sideways (stupid computer!) but I'll post them anyways so you can see where I'm at. Even though there are plenty of women who don't show yet, I already look like I'm in my 6th month!
I take my 2nd trimester blood screening tests today and don't have another follow up or ultrasound appt. until August 1st but I'm already getting antsy to see my little girl again! Although....I was a lot more excited before The Bump (pregnancy website) decided it was necessary to send me e-mails letting me know what to expect after childbirth. If you dare (and I'm so mad I did!) to see what they're saying, have a look below! Also they sent me another link just yesterday to let me know all the different poops that are normal for baby. Luckily, I will not fall for that trick twice and am in no way going to see what constitutes as safe poop or problem poop. Basically, after reading this, I've decided I want a c-section. A planned, month in advance, c-section.
After birth nastiness
So here's what's going on with baby!
HOW FAR ALONG: 17 weeks (baby weighs the same as an onion)
SLEEP: So tired! After a trip to the store on Sunday, I had to nap for 3 hours.
FOOD CRAVINGS: I'm starting to want food again, mostly because I'm hungry just sick right after I eat anything. But fruit always sounds appealing. I can't get enough strawberries. But seem to only be able to eat chips and salsa.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Getting a plan under way so I know what steps I need to take to get there.
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Working through the rest of this pregnancy, giving birth, trying to handle 3 children and figuring out a living situation. No wonder I stress so much!!
Love, Diana :)
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Week 16
I don't know who I was kidding, thinking I was a strong enough person to have a baby! I must have been out of my mind....I suffer from anxiety, pretty bad. Normally I'm medicated and that pretty much alleviates the nerves but now I'm just a giant open wound. And like a skittish cat, I'm constantly nervous and jumping at every sound. The worse part is I have nervous stomach (sort of like IBS but caused my anxiety and stress) and my body likes to react before my mind can even realize that I may be panicking. So the last few days, weeks even, have been filled with fun anxiety and stomach issues. I can only imagine how this is affecting Emily (yes I'm calling her by her "name", maybe if I say it enough James will start to agree with it). This poor little bean is just trying to chill out and get her grow on while sleeping and nesting in my belly and all I can do for her is FREAK OUT!!! 24 HOURS A DAY!!! If she comes out even semi-normal and not phased by my internal chaos, I will die of shock! But I can't worry about that now...I have to focus on remaining calm......okay. That lasted 5 seconds, I'm not calm anymore!!
I saw my OB yesterday for my little monthly visit and check in. He was a little concerned that I lost 4 pounds instead of gaining, but I explained what's been going on with my anxiety and stuff and he said we'll just "watch it". Whatever that means. To James, it means freak out and force feed me and count my vitamins to make sure I'm taking them. But I honestly know it's not a big deal. I'm sure I'll gain all the weight back and then some. He also measured my stomach and I'm at 17 inches. Apparently each inch sort of represents 1 week, so I'm about where I should be. I also mentioned some "leaking" going on lately and he tested to make sure it wasn't amniotic fluid that I was leaking. He also quickly ran the ultrasound thing on my stomach to make sure my sack is full, which it is, so I'm good there too. He swears he felt the baby kick him when he pushed on my stomach but I didn't feel anything. I don't know if I would even know what I'm feeling if and when the baby starts moving but he was pretty certain he had gotten kicked. I'm still suffering from really bad headaches, but there's not much I can do about them. I asked him about my hair growth and he said the vitamins will cause my hair EVERYWHERE to grow, not just on my head. What a bummer that is!
Other than my eventful pregnancy woes, I was finally able to have some time to pamper myself. Yesterday, I went in for a manicure and pedicure courtesy of James. It was nice to not have to worry about anything for 5 minutes and now I have beautiful hands and feet! Now if I could get my hair done, I'd be set :)
According to my Baby Center weekly e-mails, the baby is going to double it's size and weight in the next few weeks. Also, she can hear now!! I better start working on my f bombs so her first work isn't FORK! According to my Dr. I should start to feel her move in the next 2 weeks or so. Personally, I don't want to feel her move. What if she's violent and restless? What if she hurts me? Or herself?? Can babies hurt themselves in the womb?? I bet if they could, my baby would be the one to do it. Poke her eye out on accident or something. And I keep finding myself rolling over and sleeping on my stomach. I hope this is okay and that I don't squish her.
For the most part, I'm starting to get really excited for Emily to get here. I want to hold her and sleep with her and play with her and do all the Mommy things that don't require inhabiting my body. I need my Diana back and she's in hiding until this baby gets here! Today, a customer told me about how her 2nd child jumped up in her stomach so violently that she sprung a leak and started leaking tons of amniotic fluid so they had to do an emergency C-section a month before she was due. Part of me thought, "holy shit, that's scary!" but the other part thought, "well the baby weighed a lot less than expected which was probably less painful and she didn't have to go through labor pains!" So Emily, if you can hear me, please spring a leak or do something that requires you to be yanked before your time so A) You're not born so close to Xmas and B) so Mommy doesn't have to experience labor :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 16 weeks (baby is the size of an avocado!)
SLEEP: Back to almost normal sleeping habits. But I do miss my naps!
FOOD CRAVINGS: This is the first and will most likely be the last time in my life that I actually hate food. I can't stand to think about it or eat it.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Everything else in my life to fall into place so I can enjoy being pregnant and not be such an anxious stress case all the time :)
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Today I read that women have bladder problems after giving birth!!! WHAT THE HELL??
Love, Diana :)
I saw my OB yesterday for my little monthly visit and check in. He was a little concerned that I lost 4 pounds instead of gaining, but I explained what's been going on with my anxiety and stuff and he said we'll just "watch it". Whatever that means. To James, it means freak out and force feed me and count my vitamins to make sure I'm taking them. But I honestly know it's not a big deal. I'm sure I'll gain all the weight back and then some. He also measured my stomach and I'm at 17 inches. Apparently each inch sort of represents 1 week, so I'm about where I should be. I also mentioned some "leaking" going on lately and he tested to make sure it wasn't amniotic fluid that I was leaking. He also quickly ran the ultrasound thing on my stomach to make sure my sack is full, which it is, so I'm good there too. He swears he felt the baby kick him when he pushed on my stomach but I didn't feel anything. I don't know if I would even know what I'm feeling if and when the baby starts moving but he was pretty certain he had gotten kicked. I'm still suffering from really bad headaches, but there's not much I can do about them. I asked him about my hair growth and he said the vitamins will cause my hair EVERYWHERE to grow, not just on my head. What a bummer that is!
Other than my eventful pregnancy woes, I was finally able to have some time to pamper myself. Yesterday, I went in for a manicure and pedicure courtesy of James. It was nice to not have to worry about anything for 5 minutes and now I have beautiful hands and feet! Now if I could get my hair done, I'd be set :)
According to my Baby Center weekly e-mails, the baby is going to double it's size and weight in the next few weeks. Also, she can hear now!! I better start working on my f bombs so her first work isn't FORK! According to my Dr. I should start to feel her move in the next 2 weeks or so. Personally, I don't want to feel her move. What if she's violent and restless? What if she hurts me? Or herself?? Can babies hurt themselves in the womb?? I bet if they could, my baby would be the one to do it. Poke her eye out on accident or something. And I keep finding myself rolling over and sleeping on my stomach. I hope this is okay and that I don't squish her.
For the most part, I'm starting to get really excited for Emily to get here. I want to hold her and sleep with her and play with her and do all the Mommy things that don't require inhabiting my body. I need my Diana back and she's in hiding until this baby gets here! Today, a customer told me about how her 2nd child jumped up in her stomach so violently that she sprung a leak and started leaking tons of amniotic fluid so they had to do an emergency C-section a month before she was due. Part of me thought, "holy shit, that's scary!" but the other part thought, "well the baby weighed a lot less than expected which was probably less painful and she didn't have to go through labor pains!" So Emily, if you can hear me, please spring a leak or do something that requires you to be yanked before your time so A) You're not born so close to Xmas and B) so Mommy doesn't have to experience labor :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 16 weeks (baby is the size of an avocado!)
SLEEP: Back to almost normal sleeping habits. But I do miss my naps!
FOOD CRAVINGS: This is the first and will most likely be the last time in my life that I actually hate food. I can't stand to think about it or eat it.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Everything else in my life to fall into place so I can enjoy being pregnant and not be such an anxious stress case all the time :)
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Today I read that women have bladder problems after giving birth!!! WHAT THE HELL??
Love, Diana :)
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