I can't believe I've made it this far!!! I thought for sure I would have just dropped dead from anxiety or stress by now, but I made it! Now I'm in the final stretch and just so excited to meet Emily and to see what she looks like. Hold her and kiss her and see her personality! AH! I'm so excited!
Well I completely forgot to blog last week but nothing exciting happened anyways. This week however has been a different story. I started off Monday with an appt. to see my OB for my monthly check up. It....was not good. Well, my Dr.'s fine but I'm not happy. I've gained a total of 19 pounds since I got pregnant and am measuring between 29 and 30 weeks when I should just be at 28. He said it's not a big deal at this point and it's okay that I'm putting on some pounds but I'm a wreck! And the worse part is I can't stop eating. I'm hungry all the time and everything sounds good to me. I'm hoping I don't do too much damage these next 2 months, but with the holidays around the corner I'm a little nervous. At the same time, I kinda don't care. hahaha I just want to enjoy what part of this pregnancy I can and with all the ailments I've had, I think I deserve to eat what I want, when I want for the next few months :)
Other than that shock of weight gain news on Monday, I've been having a great week! My Momma is in town visiting and staying with us and what a relief it is to have some help! I feel like I'm exploding with stress, why I don't exactly know, but having my Mom here is such a help. She's been great with the kids and she gets them up and dressed in the mornings and makes them breakfast. She helps with teeth at bedtime and reads them stories before bed. They love having her here and it's so nice to have a break from the day to day grind. I'm going to be so sad when she leaves tomorrow and I know the kids will be bummed that Grandma Sue isn't there to stuff them with goodies and buy them toys. hahaha The night she got here we spent some time organizing Emily's room with all her clothes and shoes and goodies. I can't believe how much stuff I have already! And Grandma Sue ordered the crib so I should be getting that tomorrow or next week and I'm super excited to put it together and get her room going :) It's also a little scary to know that I'll be responsible for this little life and she'll be in this room sooner than I think. I just hope I can juggle it all without any major catastrophes. And if it weren't for James, I would be 20 times more nervous. But knowing he's done this twice already and his kids survived gives me hope that Emily will be okay too :)
The downsides to my pregnancy are still rampant. I'm getting really bad headaches once a week and the indigestion is as bad as ever. I should seriously buy some stock in Zantac. I found out I'm anemic so I've been having to take iron supplements along with my prenatals. And the kicking!!! I know it's good that she's moving so much but I just want a break. She keeps finding my bladder and it's like she knows it's a no no zone and just pounds away at it. Now when I lay down and she moves, my stomach moves like a body of water and you can see it. It's kinda creepy but also neat. It's like she knows when she's kicking and I want someone to see it or feel it because as soon as I start talking she stops. So anytime I try to have my Mom or James or the kids feel it, as soon as I say "hey, check it out she's kicking" she stops and I look like an idiot. Figures....
Last Sunday I declared Pamper Diana Day and I enjoyed a wonderful afternoon of some personal TLC. I got a pedicure, my finger nails painted, my eyebrows waxed and a prenatal massage. It was so nice and relaxing except for the fact that Emily kicked me VIOLENTLY the entire massage which made it a little hard to relax. But it was still a great way to spend my day and I loved every second of it!
HOW FAR ALONG: 28 weeks (baby is about 15 inches long and weighs 2-3 pds.)
SLEEP: Indigestion, hip pain and leg cramps = no sleep
FOOD CRAVINGS: I think I'm leaning more towards salty things than sweet. But I don't discriminate, I'll eat anything :)
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Taking time off work to enjoy my little bundle and take the kids to and from school. I love how the kids kiss and hug my belly. They are so excited to have a little sister!
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Gaining any more weight!!! But I'm also not willing to eat less....so, we'll see how that works :)
Love, Diana :)
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Week 26.........Am I done yet?
I'm not quite to my 3rd trimester yet and I'm already getting very antsy. I'm just all around over being pregnant. I know things will get worse when I get bigger and I'll be wishing for these days back, but right now I feel like SHIT! Yep, I said it! I'm tired of being tired all the time. I'm sick of this frickin indigestion and these headaches!! See, if I could just enjoy a drink to calm my nerves and stress I'd probably feel fine. But since that's not an option I'm going to have to start hiding sharp objects soon. The good news is Emily must have heard my cries and pleas to stop kicking because she's not as active as she was last week. At least she's giving me a break at bedtime. Oh and I haven't peed myself this week, so that's something positive. But now the indigestion has gotten so awful I can't sleep anyways. Even after overdosing on Zantac, nothing seems to give me enough relief. I even puked from it being so bad!!
I'm back to feeling like crying most days. I really think it's time I have a Diana day and just do something to pamper myself. But when I even think about planning such a day my mind floods with things that need to be done around the house or family visits or stuff we need to do for the kids and then I think "I can't take a day off!" But I'm pretty sure I'm at my breaking point so planning such a day will be much wiser in the long run than continuously straining myself.
Having the kids go back to school was a big fear of mine. They have new schedules and new daycare and now both of them have homework every night but it's actually been a really nice transition so far. We even had picture day today and I managed to iron their clothes and do their hair! Maybe I'm not as bad of a Mom as I thought. But either way, it's nice to have a routine down and everything moving smoothly. I'm SO proud of Joli because her class had a contest to draw a design for t-shirts and she won! She had the best drawing and all the kids shirts will have her picture on them. She loves school and learning. Jamesy is so different. Not in a bad way, but he's a little more forgetful when it comes to school stuff and definitely not into his handwriting or coloring in the lines. It's amazing the difference between boys and girls. I guess you never realize it until you have two little ones. But they are doing so amazing in school and in their daycare. I'm very proud of both of them!
Nothing much exciting has been going on lately. I keep trying to talk people into carrying Emily for me for the rest of the way but apparently that's impossible :( I have a feeling I'll love her a lot more when I can see and hold her vs. not knowing what the hell she's doing in my belly besides making me fat and miserable. The kids love to give her hugs and kisses every day and I can't wait to tell her that when she's old enough. I really hope Jamesy and Joli don't hate her if she's a crier and keeps us all up at night. haha I know that's a horrible thing to think but seriously, if you were 7 or 5 and some whiny ass baby was constantly waking you up every night on a school night, how would you feel? But with any luck she'll be just like her Momma. A perfect baby! And I'm not trying to be irrational but if you ask my parents, apparently I was the perfect child. Never cried, always smiling and happy and loving. I'm not sure what happened but I like to think I was perfect at one time in my life :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 26 weeks (baby is big! and moves a lot!)
SLEEP: boo acid reflux!!! I refuse to believe my best years of sleep are behind me!
FOOD CRAVINGS: Oh please, I need help! I keep eating and eating and when I'm not eating I'm thinking about eating.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Maternity leave :)
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Not much at this point, I'm just ready to get this party started! Waiting another 3 months sounds horrible.
Love, Diana :)
I'm back to feeling like crying most days. I really think it's time I have a Diana day and just do something to pamper myself. But when I even think about planning such a day my mind floods with things that need to be done around the house or family visits or stuff we need to do for the kids and then I think "I can't take a day off!" But I'm pretty sure I'm at my breaking point so planning such a day will be much wiser in the long run than continuously straining myself.
Having the kids go back to school was a big fear of mine. They have new schedules and new daycare and now both of them have homework every night but it's actually been a really nice transition so far. We even had picture day today and I managed to iron their clothes and do their hair! Maybe I'm not as bad of a Mom as I thought. But either way, it's nice to have a routine down and everything moving smoothly. I'm SO proud of Joli because her class had a contest to draw a design for t-shirts and she won! She had the best drawing and all the kids shirts will have her picture on them. She loves school and learning. Jamesy is so different. Not in a bad way, but he's a little more forgetful when it comes to school stuff and definitely not into his handwriting or coloring in the lines. It's amazing the difference between boys and girls. I guess you never realize it until you have two little ones. But they are doing so amazing in school and in their daycare. I'm very proud of both of them!
Nothing much exciting has been going on lately. I keep trying to talk people into carrying Emily for me for the rest of the way but apparently that's impossible :( I have a feeling I'll love her a lot more when I can see and hold her vs. not knowing what the hell she's doing in my belly besides making me fat and miserable. The kids love to give her hugs and kisses every day and I can't wait to tell her that when she's old enough. I really hope Jamesy and Joli don't hate her if she's a crier and keeps us all up at night. haha I know that's a horrible thing to think but seriously, if you were 7 or 5 and some whiny ass baby was constantly waking you up every night on a school night, how would you feel? But with any luck she'll be just like her Momma. A perfect baby! And I'm not trying to be irrational but if you ask my parents, apparently I was the perfect child. Never cried, always smiling and happy and loving. I'm not sure what happened but I like to think I was perfect at one time in my life :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 26 weeks (baby is big! and moves a lot!)
SLEEP: boo acid reflux!!! I refuse to believe my best years of sleep are behind me!
FOOD CRAVINGS: Oh please, I need help! I keep eating and eating and when I'm not eating I'm thinking about eating.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Maternity leave :)
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Not much at this point, I'm just ready to get this party started! Waiting another 3 months sounds horrible.
Love, Diana :)
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Week 25....getting close!
Apparently I only have 2 more weeks in my 2nd trimester. I'm excited to get this over with but super nervous about what's in store in the last 3 month stretch. All the kicking and indigestion is sure to get worse and I just don't know how I'll be handling it. I was doing so good with being happy all the time and feeling good physically but the past few days have been rough. I'm crying a lot, getting easily frustrated, tossing and turning at night again. The headaches are becoming unbearable and then they're followed by nose bleeds. I look like I have some sort of skin disease. I can't even remember how to spell disease! UGH! It's hard being so frustrated and not being able to do anything about it. The apparent loss of my short term memory is making work very hard. I feel like I can't focus anymore and I'm always scrounging to keep up and playing catch up all day. No wonder my stress levels are through the roof!
Next week should be an adventure. I'm due to take my sugar test to make sure I don't have gestational diabetes. I'm sure the test will be fine, but you never know. I've heard that if you have it, you have to cut down your daily caloric intake to something crazy like 1500. I was a little piggy before the pregnancy and have turned SUPER piggy the last month or so. I will literally shrivel up and die if I have to function off 1500 calories a day. I pretty much pig out because it's the one time Emily will stop kicking me for 5 minutes. She's non stop these days! It was cute in the beginning but I'm over it now. The other morning I was sleeping in and Bella (my love bug kitty cat) was sleeping with me and resting on my belly. The baby kept kicking and kicking so hard I thought for sure Bella would start attacking. But it didn't seem to bother her, just kept me awake :) It is kinda cool that I can see my stomach move when she kicks but after a while it turns from cute to violent and I just beg that she'll stop for any amount of time and let me catch my breath. The other day (I can't believe I'm going to share this), I was picking up a customer late in the day, in their car, and she started kicking me in the bladder SO HARD that I actually tinkled a little bit. I was so embarrassed and couldn't wait to get home. It wasn't that bad, mostly scary that she can get pee out of me with just one ninja kick. But then a few nights later I sneezed really hard and peed my pants too so then I didn't feel so mad at her for making me pee :)
However, I do have something great to look forward to and that's my baby shower! A date has been picked and I can't wait to see everyone and celebrate my little love muffin with them. My sister and best friend are planning it so I know it will be lots of fun and hopefully there will be lots of food (CHIPS AND SALSA GIRLS!). It's weird, but I'm starting to really miss my family lately. I feel like I want my Mom to take care of me everyday and I want to take care of my sister everyday and they're not close by for me to have that. Maybe that's why, but just some weird emotions lately regarding those two ladies. I miss them terribly and wish they were closer but I'm very excited to spend my baby shower with them and hopefully convince them to move closer to me :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 25 weeks (I don't know what vegetable/fruit she resembles this week and I'm over keeping track. But she's probably 2 pds)
SLEEP: I was having such a nice streak of good sleep and it's gone again :( My hips started hurting and I just can't get comfortable at night. The headaches and kicking don't seem to help much either.
FOOD CRAVINGS: I love food! All food, I won't discriminate. If it's edible, I'll scarf it like it's my last meal.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: The baby shower!
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: I'm starting to get a little nervous the closer the due date is approaching. I really really hope she doesn't show up past her due date.
Love, Diana :)
Next week should be an adventure. I'm due to take my sugar test to make sure I don't have gestational diabetes. I'm sure the test will be fine, but you never know. I've heard that if you have it, you have to cut down your daily caloric intake to something crazy like 1500. I was a little piggy before the pregnancy and have turned SUPER piggy the last month or so. I will literally shrivel up and die if I have to function off 1500 calories a day. I pretty much pig out because it's the one time Emily will stop kicking me for 5 minutes. She's non stop these days! It was cute in the beginning but I'm over it now. The other morning I was sleeping in and Bella (my love bug kitty cat) was sleeping with me and resting on my belly. The baby kept kicking and kicking so hard I thought for sure Bella would start attacking. But it didn't seem to bother her, just kept me awake :) It is kinda cool that I can see my stomach move when she kicks but after a while it turns from cute to violent and I just beg that she'll stop for any amount of time and let me catch my breath. The other day (I can't believe I'm going to share this), I was picking up a customer late in the day, in their car, and she started kicking me in the bladder SO HARD that I actually tinkled a little bit. I was so embarrassed and couldn't wait to get home. It wasn't that bad, mostly scary that she can get pee out of me with just one ninja kick. But then a few nights later I sneezed really hard and peed my pants too so then I didn't feel so mad at her for making me pee :)
However, I do have something great to look forward to and that's my baby shower! A date has been picked and I can't wait to see everyone and celebrate my little love muffin with them. My sister and best friend are planning it so I know it will be lots of fun and hopefully there will be lots of food (CHIPS AND SALSA GIRLS!). It's weird, but I'm starting to really miss my family lately. I feel like I want my Mom to take care of me everyday and I want to take care of my sister everyday and they're not close by for me to have that. Maybe that's why, but just some weird emotions lately regarding those two ladies. I miss them terribly and wish they were closer but I'm very excited to spend my baby shower with them and hopefully convince them to move closer to me :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 25 weeks (I don't know what vegetable/fruit she resembles this week and I'm over keeping track. But she's probably 2 pds)
SLEEP: I was having such a nice streak of good sleep and it's gone again :( My hips started hurting and I just can't get comfortable at night. The headaches and kicking don't seem to help much either.
FOOD CRAVINGS: I love food! All food, I won't discriminate. If it's edible, I'll scarf it like it's my last meal.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: The baby shower!
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: I'm starting to get a little nervous the closer the due date is approaching. I really really hope she doesn't show up past her due date.
Love, Diana :)
Friday, September 2, 2011
Week 24!
So I only have 3 more weeks in my 2nd trimester and then it's off to the final stretch! Part of me feels like this time has been flying by and the other part of me (the pregnant part) feels like this whole process is taking forever. I'm definitely feeling more and more ready for little Emily to get here. I'm sure as soon as she does I'll be begging the Dr. to put her back in, but right now I'm just ready to get this over with. I really want my body back to myself. It's so weird to feel her kicking and moving around. I wish I could see what she's up to in there. It still feels like a huge bird is stuck in my stomach and flapping its wings furiously to get out! The cool part though, is if I lay on my side or my back I can actually see my stomach move when she kicks (which is ALL THE TIME!). I want people to feel it but it seems as soon as I move or put someone's hand on my stomach she stops.
I have all sorts of pregnancy symptoms. Some bizarre and some expected but so far no swelling which is nice. I keep checking my rings to make sure they don't get too snug but I think I have a couple more months before that whole nightmare starts. At least I hope I do! I keep telling myself I'm not going to read about anymore pregnancy stuff on The Baby Center's website. Everything I read freaks me out and I've decided that I'd rather not know and just be surprised :) But then they send me these e-mails that have really interesting subject lines and I think "yeah, I wanna know what the 20 pregnancy myths are" No, Diana! No you don't! So one of them was "Is it true that my baby will resemble the size I was as a baby?" Well, since I was close to 10 pds when I was born, I was curious to know if this was true or a myth (fingers crossed for myth!!) Um, yeah. Of course it's true!! And they say it takes after the Mom's side too!! And then mothers commented that they had the same experience. So now I'm a little nervous. I don't want to give birth to some 20 pd kid! My parents still joke that I could hold my head up when I was born and people thought someone had left their baby in the hospital for a month as I lay in the incubator twice the size of the other newborns. And then they sent another e-mail titled "What will your body look like right after giving birth" and I think, okay. That can't be that bad to read. Maybe I'll just skip to the part where it tells me how much weight I'll lose in the first few days....WRONG! They spell out all kinds of creepy stuff that's going to happen to my body afterwards! I really need to stop reading up on this stuff. Again, I like surprises! If I don't know what to expect, I won't expect anything :)
Nothing too new is going on, my belly seems to be expanding at a very rapid pace. I'm eating like a little piglet. The kids' mom left for Texas this week so they were finally home, in their own rooms and beds. I was so excited to see them and spend time with them but Joli is taking it really hard (as usual). It's hard to stay positive and not get angry at her Mother when I see how upset her leaving makes Joli. It reminds me of being a child myself. When she's upset, I'm upset. And the worse part is that there's nothing I can do. There's nothing or anyone who can replace that sadness in Joli's heart when her Mom is gone and it's hard because I just want to fix it. Hopefully after a few days she'll be okay, but right now the house feels like a funeral home!
Oh, and I forgot to share in my past blogs about my new found anxiety towards pregnant women. I just don't like them. James and I did the hospital walk through with about 10 other couples. I know I did it early but I'm very nervous and wanted to be prepared and know what the hospital would look like, the rooms, the nursery, how to get there, etc. Well...these other women were ready to pop!! Most of them only had 2-3 weeks left in their pregnancy!! All I could do was look around the room at these women, paranoid that one of them was going to pop a baby out at any second. It got too much and we left early. Then last Saturday I got a much needed pedicure. As soon as I start to relax, a pregnant woman comes in to get a mani/pedi and sits right next to me. I hear her tell the lady that she is 37 weeks!!! That's like, due date week!!! What the hell is she doing out in public??? The rest of the time, I just stared at her wondering if she would give birth right then and there. So I've decided to try and avoid really pregnant women for the time being. They throw me into an instant panic!
HOW FAR ALONG: 24 weeks (the baby weighs about 1.5 lbs and if she's anything like me she's HUGE!)
SLEEP: Getting a little better. I still wake up easily, and it takes me a good 30 seconds to roll over.
FOOD CRAVINGS: FEED ME! I'm just hungry all the time and everything sounds good at this point.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Having a 3 day weekend to spend with my family.
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Emily getting much bigger. I wonder how I can convince my Dr. that she should come out once she weighs 6 lbs....
Love, Diana :)
I have all sorts of pregnancy symptoms. Some bizarre and some expected but so far no swelling which is nice. I keep checking my rings to make sure they don't get too snug but I think I have a couple more months before that whole nightmare starts. At least I hope I do! I keep telling myself I'm not going to read about anymore pregnancy stuff on The Baby Center's website. Everything I read freaks me out and I've decided that I'd rather not know and just be surprised :) But then they send me these e-mails that have really interesting subject lines and I think "yeah, I wanna know what the 20 pregnancy myths are" No, Diana! No you don't! So one of them was "Is it true that my baby will resemble the size I was as a baby?" Well, since I was close to 10 pds when I was born, I was curious to know if this was true or a myth (fingers crossed for myth!!) Um, yeah. Of course it's true!! And they say it takes after the Mom's side too!! And then mothers commented that they had the same experience. So now I'm a little nervous. I don't want to give birth to some 20 pd kid! My parents still joke that I could hold my head up when I was born and people thought someone had left their baby in the hospital for a month as I lay in the incubator twice the size of the other newborns. And then they sent another e-mail titled "What will your body look like right after giving birth" and I think, okay. That can't be that bad to read. Maybe I'll just skip to the part where it tells me how much weight I'll lose in the first few days....WRONG! They spell out all kinds of creepy stuff that's going to happen to my body afterwards! I really need to stop reading up on this stuff. Again, I like surprises! If I don't know what to expect, I won't expect anything :)
Nothing too new is going on, my belly seems to be expanding at a very rapid pace. I'm eating like a little piglet. The kids' mom left for Texas this week so they were finally home, in their own rooms and beds. I was so excited to see them and spend time with them but Joli is taking it really hard (as usual). It's hard to stay positive and not get angry at her Mother when I see how upset her leaving makes Joli. It reminds me of being a child myself. When she's upset, I'm upset. And the worse part is that there's nothing I can do. There's nothing or anyone who can replace that sadness in Joli's heart when her Mom is gone and it's hard because I just want to fix it. Hopefully after a few days she'll be okay, but right now the house feels like a funeral home!
Oh, and I forgot to share in my past blogs about my new found anxiety towards pregnant women. I just don't like them. James and I did the hospital walk through with about 10 other couples. I know I did it early but I'm very nervous and wanted to be prepared and know what the hospital would look like, the rooms, the nursery, how to get there, etc. Well...these other women were ready to pop!! Most of them only had 2-3 weeks left in their pregnancy!! All I could do was look around the room at these women, paranoid that one of them was going to pop a baby out at any second. It got too much and we left early. Then last Saturday I got a much needed pedicure. As soon as I start to relax, a pregnant woman comes in to get a mani/pedi and sits right next to me. I hear her tell the lady that she is 37 weeks!!! That's like, due date week!!! What the hell is she doing out in public??? The rest of the time, I just stared at her wondering if she would give birth right then and there. So I've decided to try and avoid really pregnant women for the time being. They throw me into an instant panic!
HOW FAR ALONG: 24 weeks (the baby weighs about 1.5 lbs and if she's anything like me she's HUGE!)
SLEEP: Getting a little better. I still wake up easily, and it takes me a good 30 seconds to roll over.
FOOD CRAVINGS: FEED ME! I'm just hungry all the time and everything sounds good at this point.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Having a 3 day weekend to spend with my family.
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Emily getting much bigger. I wonder how I can convince my Dr. that she should come out once she weighs 6 lbs....
Love, Diana :)
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Week 23!
Wow, I actually had to go to my last blog post just to remember which week I'm in. I'm starting to get very excited for little Emily to get here already. Pregnancy is finally kinda fun and not as awful as it was the first 3-4 months but it's still exhausting and I've been under a lot of stress lately so a drink or two or nine sounds really good right about now. I have this completely unrealistic vision of laying on a beach with drinks and only adults once this pregnancy is over. But in reality, I'll be covered in puke, poop and pee and exhausted from lack of sleep. It's like I forget that at the end of this 9 months, there will be a baby that will change my entire life for the rest of my life. Dreams of vacationing in Hawaii with James just the two of us will be put on the back burner, probably until we're in our 60's. Sometimes I wonder if this is really the best decision, or if I'll crack under the pressure but I'm starting to see myself as more of a Mommy and less of a partying 20 yr old Diana. I am the most raunchy person I know and have a weird, inappropriate sense of humor but lately I've been feeling a little reserved. Sometimes, actually offended! It's almost like I know I'm going to be someone's Mom so I can't say certain things or laugh at certain jokes. Hopefully this will pass, because as much as my sense of humor isn't for everyone, it's my favorite personality trait and I don't want to lose it!
I'm still feeling really good. Eating a lot, laughing a lot and just generally feeling better. But goodness! This indigestion or heart burn or acid reflux, whatever the hell it's called is going to kill me before I give birth. There is a constant burn in my throat/stomach and just not enough relief. My hips are feeling a little better, which is a nice break but I'm usually up at least once or twice during the night with really bad acid reflux. And then when I fall back asleep from that I wake up 5 minutes later with leg cramps. I wish I could videotape me during a nights sleep just to see how many times I get up out of bed to ease the cramps and then sit up to help the acid reflux and toss and turn to help my hips. It's a miracle James has been sleeping through this. Oh, and the kicking!!! Good LORD! I was thinking since I didn't feel her until a week or so ago that maybe she would be lazy like her Momma and just lay back and chill/sleep all day. Well...girlfriend is moving! I don't know what she's so excited about or why she just can't sit still but she's already got ADD! Which sounds very familiar to James, Joli and Jamesy. The 3 of them couldn't sit still for 5 minutes if someone offered them each a million dollars! But the cool part is at night when I lay on my side, James can feel her kick now. It's so weird that there is a little person inside my belly and it's kicking me! It almost feels like a bird is trapped in my belly and desperately flapping it's wings to get out.
So it's on week 2 of no kiddies and I'm starting to really really miss them. Joli's first day of 2nd grade was yesterday and I'm a little bummed I didn't get to be there to dress her and walk her to class and pack her backpack with her BUT I'm also really happy that her Mom was here to experience that with her. She is so close with her Mom and I know it was important for the both of them so I'm glad they had that day together. Also, my little man Jamesy started Kindergarten. I still remember the very first time I laid eyes on him and he just stared at me like "who is this stranger!" but he warmed up to me so fast and I miss holding him, miss changing his diapers, miss his beautiful baby curls. UH! I could cry just thinking about how much they've grown. But again, I couldn't be happier that they got to share this time with their Mom and I know there will always be next year for me to be there on their first day again :)
This weekend James is going to Washington for a friends wedding so I have the house to myself. Part of me is really excited because I can eat all the chips and salsa I want for 2 whole days with no one to stop me! The other part is a little sad that I'll get lonely. But normally I love to have ME time so I'm going to make the best of it regardless. But I do rely on James to do pretty much everything so it's going to suck to have to get my own glass of water. hahaha jk.
Oh and my Dad keeps telling me to put in here how much he loves and how much I love him. So Dad, I love you too!! And I know you "love your little girl" :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 23 weeks (the baby is the size of....who knows!? She's frickin big!)
SLEEP: I will overdose on Tums this weekend and try to catch up :)
FOOD CRAVINGS: Right now, anything that's edible I want to shove in my mouth! (that doesn't sound right...)
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: CHIPS AND SALSA!!! CHIPS AND SALSA!!! JAMES CAN'T STOP ME!!!
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Waiting til December for my little love muffin!
Love, Diana :)
I'm still feeling really good. Eating a lot, laughing a lot and just generally feeling better. But goodness! This indigestion or heart burn or acid reflux, whatever the hell it's called is going to kill me before I give birth. There is a constant burn in my throat/stomach and just not enough relief. My hips are feeling a little better, which is a nice break but I'm usually up at least once or twice during the night with really bad acid reflux. And then when I fall back asleep from that I wake up 5 minutes later with leg cramps. I wish I could videotape me during a nights sleep just to see how many times I get up out of bed to ease the cramps and then sit up to help the acid reflux and toss and turn to help my hips. It's a miracle James has been sleeping through this. Oh, and the kicking!!! Good LORD! I was thinking since I didn't feel her until a week or so ago that maybe she would be lazy like her Momma and just lay back and chill/sleep all day. Well...girlfriend is moving! I don't know what she's so excited about or why she just can't sit still but she's already got ADD! Which sounds very familiar to James, Joli and Jamesy. The 3 of them couldn't sit still for 5 minutes if someone offered them each a million dollars! But the cool part is at night when I lay on my side, James can feel her kick now. It's so weird that there is a little person inside my belly and it's kicking me! It almost feels like a bird is trapped in my belly and desperately flapping it's wings to get out.
So it's on week 2 of no kiddies and I'm starting to really really miss them. Joli's first day of 2nd grade was yesterday and I'm a little bummed I didn't get to be there to dress her and walk her to class and pack her backpack with her BUT I'm also really happy that her Mom was here to experience that with her. She is so close with her Mom and I know it was important for the both of them so I'm glad they had that day together. Also, my little man Jamesy started Kindergarten. I still remember the very first time I laid eyes on him and he just stared at me like "who is this stranger!" but he warmed up to me so fast and I miss holding him, miss changing his diapers, miss his beautiful baby curls. UH! I could cry just thinking about how much they've grown. But again, I couldn't be happier that they got to share this time with their Mom and I know there will always be next year for me to be there on their first day again :)
This weekend James is going to Washington for a friends wedding so I have the house to myself. Part of me is really excited because I can eat all the chips and salsa I want for 2 whole days with no one to stop me! The other part is a little sad that I'll get lonely. But normally I love to have ME time so I'm going to make the best of it regardless. But I do rely on James to do pretty much everything so it's going to suck to have to get my own glass of water. hahaha jk.
Oh and my Dad keeps telling me to put in here how much he loves and how much I love him. So Dad, I love you too!! And I know you "love your little girl" :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 23 weeks (the baby is the size of....who knows!? She's frickin big!)
SLEEP: I will overdose on Tums this weekend and try to catch up :)
FOOD CRAVINGS: Right now, anything that's edible I want to shove in my mouth! (that doesn't sound right...)
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: CHIPS AND SALSA!!! CHIPS AND SALSA!!! JAMES CAN'T STOP ME!!!
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Waiting til December for my little love muffin!
Love, Diana :)
Friday, August 19, 2011
Week 22....I almost forgot!
I almost forgot to blog this week! It's been pretty crazy lately. Lots going on with the move and getting the house situated and work has been a lot busier than usual. I feel like I'm in this strange middle ground where I'm over the sickness and initial shock of being pregnant but I'm not quite at that stage where I'm preparing to give birth, have a heavy baby laying on my bladder all day and swollen feet. It almost feels like I know a huge transition is coming but I don't know when or where or how to prevent it. I keep comparing my fear of giving birth to being shot. It's like someone is telling me "hey, in a few months on a day and time you won't be expecting it, someone will shoot you. You'll live but it will be painful and traumatizing" Or like those people in those Final Destination movies. They know death is trying to get them but they don't know when or how. I'm sure having a baby isn't as awful as being shot or chased down by death but it's the closest comparison I can relate to at this time.
The good news is I'm still feeling pretty good. My appetite has kicked in full force and I feel like a pig 24 hours a day. I'm constantly shoveling food in my mouth or thinking about what kind of food I want to shovel in my mouth. I don't have any cravings though, at least not yet. I feel like eating fruit a lot more and of course my usual chips and salsa are always on my mind but nothing that I can actually taste in my mouth or HAVE to have.
This last week has been so nice! The kids' mom is in town for a few weeks so she has them full time which is a nice break. I miss them already and want to hug their little bodies as tight as possible, but I definitely can use the break and I'm enjoying all the time I get to spend with James :) No rush in the mornings to get out the door, no rush to get home and figure out dinner. Aahhhhh reality is going to SUCK next week!
We also got to have a date night with James' parents. Just the four of us. We never get to go out like that so it was nice to be able to have a conversation without kids interrupting us. And today I got to go to lunch with the girls. It was a very nice, much needed break from work. And I'm sorry Jamie, but I have to tell this story! One of Jamie's oldest friends, Mercedes, has an 8 month old boy. He is the cutest little thing in the world and every time I see him I get so excited for little Emily to get here. Anyways, Jamie held her little boy while we ate lunch and he peed on her!!! HE PEED THROUGH HIS DIAPER!!! Is this the kind of stuff I have to look forward too??? It was kinda funny though....I'm sure I wouldn't have thought so if he peed on me but he might as well have. I'll have to get used to that sooner or later! And it's nice to be able to ask her a million questions about being a Mom.
On the mommy-to-be front not too much has changed since last week. My belly button is really hard though and about to start sticking out. That freaks me out a little. My belly is slowly but surely growing and it's hard too. Emily is finally making full on ninja kicks and she's mostly active at night but during the day she can be too. The indigestion is unbearable at this point and I've heard rumors that that could mean the baby is growing more hair. If this is the case, my baby is Chewbacca because I have acid reflux 24/7! I also got a chance last weekend to visit my Grandma at her grave site in Lafayette. I miss her so much, especially lately because I can actually picture here holding my baby and smiling at the both of us. I told her about my little nugget and how I'm naming her after the greatest grandma (and Mother if you ask my Dad) to walk the earth. I promised to be as loving to Emily as she was to my Dad. Just maybe more strict :) I did have a little mini breakdown the other night though. I was watching Ice loves Coco (give me a break, there was nothing else on TV!) and Coco's sister went into labor and they showed her and the birthing stuff. I freaked. My jaw hit the floor and I immediately stomped out to James in the living room, did my cry face and proceeded to refuse to give birth. I told him if the dr's said push, I would hold her in. I will no way do this! It looks so scary and chaotic and I just don't see the "natural, beautiful" thing in popping a baby out of your hoohoo! It's just not right....there has to be another way. My goal is to come up with an alternative way to get a baby out of my belly besides c-section and the age old typical way before Emily gets here. I better hurry up!
HOW FAR ALONG: 22 weeks (baby is the size of a spaghetti squash?)
SLEEP: What sleep? My hips hurt SO bad I'm too uncomfortable to sleep for more than 20 minutes at a time
FOOD CRAVINGS: Nothing yet. Maybe when I get bigger I'll start having some cravings.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Holding her in my arms for the first time.
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Trying to find an alternative to giving birth...that may be tricky!
Love, Diana :)
The good news is I'm still feeling pretty good. My appetite has kicked in full force and I feel like a pig 24 hours a day. I'm constantly shoveling food in my mouth or thinking about what kind of food I want to shovel in my mouth. I don't have any cravings though, at least not yet. I feel like eating fruit a lot more and of course my usual chips and salsa are always on my mind but nothing that I can actually taste in my mouth or HAVE to have.
This last week has been so nice! The kids' mom is in town for a few weeks so she has them full time which is a nice break. I miss them already and want to hug their little bodies as tight as possible, but I definitely can use the break and I'm enjoying all the time I get to spend with James :) No rush in the mornings to get out the door, no rush to get home and figure out dinner. Aahhhhh reality is going to SUCK next week!
We also got to have a date night with James' parents. Just the four of us. We never get to go out like that so it was nice to be able to have a conversation without kids interrupting us. And today I got to go to lunch with the girls. It was a very nice, much needed break from work. And I'm sorry Jamie, but I have to tell this story! One of Jamie's oldest friends, Mercedes, has an 8 month old boy. He is the cutest little thing in the world and every time I see him I get so excited for little Emily to get here. Anyways, Jamie held her little boy while we ate lunch and he peed on her!!! HE PEED THROUGH HIS DIAPER!!! Is this the kind of stuff I have to look forward too??? It was kinda funny though....I'm sure I wouldn't have thought so if he peed on me but he might as well have. I'll have to get used to that sooner or later! And it's nice to be able to ask her a million questions about being a Mom.
On the mommy-to-be front not too much has changed since last week. My belly button is really hard though and about to start sticking out. That freaks me out a little. My belly is slowly but surely growing and it's hard too. Emily is finally making full on ninja kicks and she's mostly active at night but during the day she can be too. The indigestion is unbearable at this point and I've heard rumors that that could mean the baby is growing more hair. If this is the case, my baby is Chewbacca because I have acid reflux 24/7! I also got a chance last weekend to visit my Grandma at her grave site in Lafayette. I miss her so much, especially lately because I can actually picture here holding my baby and smiling at the both of us. I told her about my little nugget and how I'm naming her after the greatest grandma (and Mother if you ask my Dad) to walk the earth. I promised to be as loving to Emily as she was to my Dad. Just maybe more strict :) I did have a little mini breakdown the other night though. I was watching Ice loves Coco (give me a break, there was nothing else on TV!) and Coco's sister went into labor and they showed her and the birthing stuff. I freaked. My jaw hit the floor and I immediately stomped out to James in the living room, did my cry face and proceeded to refuse to give birth. I told him if the dr's said push, I would hold her in. I will no way do this! It looks so scary and chaotic and I just don't see the "natural, beautiful" thing in popping a baby out of your hoohoo! It's just not right....there has to be another way. My goal is to come up with an alternative way to get a baby out of my belly besides c-section and the age old typical way before Emily gets here. I better hurry up!
HOW FAR ALONG: 22 weeks (baby is the size of a spaghetti squash?)
SLEEP: What sleep? My hips hurt SO bad I'm too uncomfortable to sleep for more than 20 minutes at a time
FOOD CRAVINGS: Nothing yet. Maybe when I get bigger I'll start having some cravings.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Holding her in my arms for the first time.
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: Trying to find an alternative to giving birth...that may be tricky!
Love, Diana :)
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Week 21
I wish I had some exciting news to report this week but it's been pretty low key. The baby is now 10 1/2 inches long (or around that) and weighs over 12 oz. which I knew from my ultrasound last week. She's been moving around a lot more lately too. My stomach flutters all morning/early afternoon and then again at night time when I'm resting. It's such a weird feeling and I wish I could feel it from the outside so others could feel too but not yet! I'm starting to feel very...what's the word?...motherly! I'm getting more and more concerned about taking care of little Emily and that's a totally knew and strange feeling for me. But it's also kinda nice :)
We're pretty much fully moved into to our new home. It's so amazing to have a house with lots of space and room for everyone to do their own thing without sitting on top of each other. And it's really exciting to see Emily's room that I'll get to furnish and decorate in the next few months. Joli drew a giant picture for her to hang on the wall. Honestly, it looks like one of those satanic star-in-circle pictures but I would never dream of telling her that so Emily will be sporting 666 paraphernalia on her wall for a while :) The one thing I'm not looking too forward to is baby proofing the house. Luckily for the first few weeks anyways she won't be doing much moving around on her own so I'll have a while to make the house safe but there's just so much I haven't thought about yet and when I even try to think about making a check list or marking something off that check list, I get so overwhelmed. And I think I over did it a little bit during packing and moving because my stomach feels so sore like I pulled a muscle but hopefully that will go away in a few days.
This is probably the best I've felt since I found out I was expecting and it's nice to have my appetite back and feel so happy for a change. The headaches have been less painful and seem to not last as long as usual. Not sure if this is permanent or not, but I'm eating it up while I can! Lots of indigestion though. Every night I'm up and down with burning sensations in my throat and stomach. Also my hips and back are hurting a lot so I'm not sleeping much because I can't seem to get comfortable. I bought a pregnancy pillow and it's HUGE! Half the size of the bed, but it hurts my neck and makes me feel suffocated so maybe when I'm bigger I'll be able to enjoy it more. My belly seems to have doubled in the size. I know it hasn't literally but all of a sudden when I look down, all I see is a huge gut! There's no denying I'm preggers now!
It was very cute, last night when the baby was fluttering around I told James and he came over and started talking to her and she moved around even more. I think she's getting used to his voice and that makes me so happy. The kids love to kiss my belly for the baby and hug her too. Sometimes I forget how lucky I am to have such a wonderful little family that I love so much and that love me just as much. I'm very excited for the kiddies because their Mom just got back from a tour in Afghanistan and will be here in about a week to spend some time with them. They are SO excited to see their Mommy!!! And I'm just as excited to have some me and Daddy time too :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 21 Weeks (baby is about 10 1/2 inches long!)
SLEEP: I miss sleep so much :( It was my favorite pastime!
FOOD CRAVINGS: Mostly just chips and salsa. I could eat that for breakfast, lunch and dinner!
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Alone time with James and finishing the house
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: I hear the 3rd trimester can be rough especially close to the due date. I'm a little nervous about how I'll feel then since I'm already so uncomfortable.
Love, Diana :)
We're pretty much fully moved into to our new home. It's so amazing to have a house with lots of space and room for everyone to do their own thing without sitting on top of each other. And it's really exciting to see Emily's room that I'll get to furnish and decorate in the next few months. Joli drew a giant picture for her to hang on the wall. Honestly, it looks like one of those satanic star-in-circle pictures but I would never dream of telling her that so Emily will be sporting 666 paraphernalia on her wall for a while :) The one thing I'm not looking too forward to is baby proofing the house. Luckily for the first few weeks anyways she won't be doing much moving around on her own so I'll have a while to make the house safe but there's just so much I haven't thought about yet and when I even try to think about making a check list or marking something off that check list, I get so overwhelmed. And I think I over did it a little bit during packing and moving because my stomach feels so sore like I pulled a muscle but hopefully that will go away in a few days.
This is probably the best I've felt since I found out I was expecting and it's nice to have my appetite back and feel so happy for a change. The headaches have been less painful and seem to not last as long as usual. Not sure if this is permanent or not, but I'm eating it up while I can! Lots of indigestion though. Every night I'm up and down with burning sensations in my throat and stomach. Also my hips and back are hurting a lot so I'm not sleeping much because I can't seem to get comfortable. I bought a pregnancy pillow and it's HUGE! Half the size of the bed, but it hurts my neck and makes me feel suffocated so maybe when I'm bigger I'll be able to enjoy it more. My belly seems to have doubled in the size. I know it hasn't literally but all of a sudden when I look down, all I see is a huge gut! There's no denying I'm preggers now!
It was very cute, last night when the baby was fluttering around I told James and he came over and started talking to her and she moved around even more. I think she's getting used to his voice and that makes me so happy. The kids love to kiss my belly for the baby and hug her too. Sometimes I forget how lucky I am to have such a wonderful little family that I love so much and that love me just as much. I'm very excited for the kiddies because their Mom just got back from a tour in Afghanistan and will be here in about a week to spend some time with them. They are SO excited to see their Mommy!!! And I'm just as excited to have some me and Daddy time too :)
HOW FAR ALONG: 21 Weeks (baby is about 10 1/2 inches long!)
SLEEP: I miss sleep so much :( It was my favorite pastime!
FOOD CRAVINGS: Mostly just chips and salsa. I could eat that for breakfast, lunch and dinner!
WHAT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Alone time with James and finishing the house
WHAT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: I hear the 3rd trimester can be rough especially close to the due date. I'm a little nervous about how I'll feel then since I'm already so uncomfortable.
Love, Diana :)
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